A night like tonight
Like a fool I sat up most of the night waiting for a girl to call. Never did happen. And when I went to see her, I just got slapped. GRRRR. This is one of those nights for a reflection. One of those nights where you take a break from reality and substitute it with your own. One of those nights when you sit down and try to think about what you are, who are you, and where you are going. That is a night like tonight. I have been so busy the last few weeks that I have not had a moment alone in quite sometime. Questions such as, Am I ready to date? Am I over my ex? All these things and more I ask myself and still the answers haven't come. I am honestly ready for a breakdown but with my schedule, I know that won't happen, it can't happen. Do I want it to happen. Things move at a very fast pace and I accept that but still I cannot accept the ways of the world. To be honest I feel lost. As if I am adrift somewhere and have no direction to go. Still, I keep paddling knowing that there is land out there somewhere. Tonight I am taking a walk to clear my head. I am not sure that it is working though.
Peace
Peace