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wow... im posting an entry in this thing? and its about what i think? no way...
first off, musical went well minus like 2 things saturday... but thats all taken care of... never gonna be a problem again
next... ive realized in the last week that i lead people on... alot... and thats not a good thing... cuz i usually do it when im not looking for a relationship... but i do it anyways... terrible idea...
oh and so tennis is cool... im a captain (hah...) and were actually getting in shape. who does coach think we are the track team?
oh and coons is playing tennis...
yay for comedic relief at practice...
lets see... whatelse is there...
oh so i still havent paid for my ap stats exam... i want to take it but i dont want to pay for it. that might be a problem since money is due this week...
my mom keeps telling me that im lazy (i know that) and that if i continue like this ill flunk out of college. it really hit me today tho. im really lazy, and my whole purpose in life basically, i cant be lazy. i want to go on and teach kids in the same position i am now (hopefully minus the lazy part) and that cant happen if im lazy like this...
and ive given up on stats i think... i go, but my mind isnt really there. idk why.
and i came to the conclusion i have a.d.d..... bad. i cant focus if anyone talks to me or walks by or drives by. so thats going great. and by me noticing, my mom noticed. i guess it runs in the family (if thats possible).
and ive been thinking about ball too. damn... ive done alot of thinking. i dont know what im going to do for ball. my mind is all scrambled up and thinking about so much right now. like i think to myself do i want to go, what friends do i want to go with, do i want to go... it just keeps going on. i quite honestly have no idea what i want to do. like i want to go, but i dont at the same time now. idk why, but thats just me. like seriously, its my senior ball and now im thinking meh, why go? thats not good. idk.
and heres the last thing for the next (at my rate) 4 or so months...
i wish i could somehow keep going, drumline wise. like seriously, saturday when i was half asleep at musical i had my iPod on my drum corps list and i was just like damn im gonna fuckin miss this a ton. like seriously. for 4 years now its what ive done for a 1/4 of a year. thats one whole year basically ive spent drumming. im gonna miss it like crazy. that and racing. ive been doing that for even longer.
this whole college thing... really makes ya think about alot.
and to leave ya laughing... hoffman told me that everyone was saying it was me that was smoking weed saturday at musical...
first off, musical went well minus like 2 things saturday... but thats all taken care of... never gonna be a problem again
next... ive realized in the last week that i lead people on... alot... and thats not a good thing... cuz i usually do it when im not looking for a relationship... but i do it anyways... terrible idea...
oh and so tennis is cool... im a captain (hah...) and were actually getting in shape. who does coach think we are the track team?
oh and coons is playing tennis...
yay for comedic relief at practice...
lets see... whatelse is there...
oh so i still havent paid for my ap stats exam... i want to take it but i dont want to pay for it. that might be a problem since money is due this week...
my mom keeps telling me that im lazy (i know that) and that if i continue like this ill flunk out of college. it really hit me today tho. im really lazy, and my whole purpose in life basically, i cant be lazy. i want to go on and teach kids in the same position i am now (hopefully minus the lazy part) and that cant happen if im lazy like this...
and ive given up on stats i think... i go, but my mind isnt really there. idk why.
and i came to the conclusion i have a.d.d..... bad. i cant focus if anyone talks to me or walks by or drives by. so thats going great. and by me noticing, my mom noticed. i guess it runs in the family (if thats possible).
and ive been thinking about ball too. damn... ive done alot of thinking. i dont know what im going to do for ball. my mind is all scrambled up and thinking about so much right now. like i think to myself do i want to go, what friends do i want to go with, do i want to go... it just keeps going on. i quite honestly have no idea what i want to do. like i want to go, but i dont at the same time now. idk why, but thats just me. like seriously, its my senior ball and now im thinking meh, why go? thats not good. idk.
and heres the last thing for the next (at my rate) 4 or so months...
i wish i could somehow keep going, drumline wise. like seriously, saturday when i was half asleep at musical i had my iPod on my drum corps list and i was just like damn im gonna fuckin miss this a ton. like seriously. for 4 years now its what ive done for a 1/4 of a year. thats one whole year basically ive spent drumming. im gonna miss it like crazy. that and racing. ive been doing that for even longer.
this whole college thing... really makes ya think about alot.
and to leave ya laughing... hoffman told me that everyone was saying it was me that was smoking weed saturday at musical...