Apr 17, 2001 22:43
i have returned; after going to omaha, and wadena, and minneapolis (several times.) getting on the road was fun. just me, my monkey and music. but i got sick after all that running about. i still am sick, the same headache for three weeks now. i have been getting lots of sleep, too much sleep. sinus pressure drains my energy. hummmmm. what else is new. my back got tattoed and a friend of mine cut most of my hair off. its ok, i asked for it. my hair pisses me off. everyone else seems to love it. everyone loves natural curl! they are all jealous!
so, i am also looking for a roommate. just for a year, then who knows. the future changes every moment. anyway, drop me a line if you are interested.
ever since elementary school, i have been waiting for this time in my life. the time where i make my decisions. its hard. there are so many directions i want to go. all i want to do right now is get this next school year out of the way and move on. move on.
my dad keeps giving me these pep talks. "go get your 4 year degree!" i want to, i really want to now. just recently i realized how much i am like my father, yet i am my own person. i have made myself, made who i am, found who i am.
at his reception he said to me,"you know you will always be my little girl. i will always love you no matter what." tears filled my eyes.
"i'm just going to get my feet wet until i drown
i'm teetering between tired and really really tired...
i've had a lack of information, and i've had a little revelation, i'm climbing up on the railing, trying not to look down
i'm gonna do my best swan dive, into shark infested waters, i'm gonna pull out my tampon and start splashing around, ,cause i don't care if they eat me alive, if got better things to do then survive, i've got the memory, your warm skin in my hands, i've got visions of sky and dry land...
i'm gonna have to go boldly, 'cause a little bird told me, that jumping is easy, that falling is fun, right up 'til you hit the sidewalk,
shivering
stunned"