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Repeat. Shuffle. Nonsense.
A little over two years ago - I started hanging out with a girl, things progressed, we hung out constantly, daily.
I thought we both though it was something it wasn't. I met someone, and the world exploded, she exploded. I learned a lesson that winter, those holidays. You can't spend every day with a woman for months - and think things are casual. Doesn't matter what she says - casual it's not. I learned a lesson.
...
This heart break around - I figured I'd do things different - I figured I'd learned my lesson.
Turns out - It's likely I'll be a fool till the day I die.
FUCK!
I had to have a conversation with a woman I'd been spending time with, keeping casual - something that seemed like good fun, but not deep. haha - kidding. Dude, c'mon - why I didn't I see this coming??? The last thing I ever want is to hurt someone like I've been hurt. But she cried. cried. I should give up.
Then, I go out - I drown my sorrows. I drink, I smoke, I bitch. And she listens. Why does she listen? Is she like me? Am I turned on because she's beautiful, or broken? Do I love those curves or those tears?
I'm indecisive - yet, capable of deciding on a moment of indiscretion. I replay this all - in a foggy state - I try to make reality of nothing.
It's time to give up - life never gets easy.
Fucking SMILE - it's not so bad. Let's go have fun.
A little over two years ago - I started hanging out with a girl, things progressed, we hung out constantly, daily.
I thought we both though it was something it wasn't. I met someone, and the world exploded, she exploded. I learned a lesson that winter, those holidays. You can't spend every day with a woman for months - and think things are casual. Doesn't matter what she says - casual it's not. I learned a lesson.
...
This heart break around - I figured I'd do things different - I figured I'd learned my lesson.
Turns out - It's likely I'll be a fool till the day I die.
FUCK!
I had to have a conversation with a woman I'd been spending time with, keeping casual - something that seemed like good fun, but not deep. haha - kidding. Dude, c'mon - why I didn't I see this coming??? The last thing I ever want is to hurt someone like I've been hurt. But she cried. cried. I should give up.
Then, I go out - I drown my sorrows. I drink, I smoke, I bitch. And she listens. Why does she listen? Is she like me? Am I turned on because she's beautiful, or broken? Do I love those curves or those tears?
I'm indecisive - yet, capable of deciding on a moment of indiscretion. I replay this all - in a foggy state - I try to make reality of nothing.
It's time to give up - life never gets easy.
Fucking SMILE - it's not so bad. Let's go have fun.