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i got my first tattoo today
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there's something relaxing about being hurt with such care and detail. about someone putting all their focus on you, but not really you. about someone making sure that you're perfect, even though that's what you're paying them to do, about someone treating your skin like it's worth only the best. there's something relaxing about someone causing you pain and knowing that they are, but doing it without the intent to hurt you. it's the shallowest level of trust, but it's still there, casual and calming. they're biting into your skin and marking you, but you control where and how they do it; it's a strange power dynamic. sitting there, helpless and in control all at once.
maybe i'm just starved for human interaction
!!
there's something relaxing about being hurt with such care and detail. about someone putting all their focus on you, but not really you. about someone making sure that you're perfect, even though that's what you're paying them to do, about someone treating your skin like it's worth only the best. there's something relaxing about someone causing you pain and knowing that they are, but doing it without the intent to hurt you. it's the shallowest level of trust, but it's still there, casual and calming. they're biting into your skin and marking you, but you control where and how they do it; it's a strange power dynamic. sitting there, helpless and in control all at once.
maybe i'm just starved for human interaction