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sitting here and listening to the garden state soundtrack.
i took jennica back home a little while ago and its so depressing to see her go. she'll leave and it always seems like the its last time ill see her, so im obligated to tell her everything on my mind and how i feel about life and everything in it. she tells me, but ive never thought about how incredible it is that we can relate to each other so naturally. its not creapy, its not unique, its not right. its special, its wonderful, its even beautiful the way we can just sit down and literally pour our hearts out over things hidden to the naked eyes of the world. you'll never know whats underneath until you can listen to whats inside someone else's mind. i love spending time with her so much...its great. indescribable actually. and ive never truely siad how much i enjoy hanging out with her...i guess i just take our visits together for granted. we dont see each other very often. talking to her over the phone and being with her in person is like day and night. there's things we'll do together that i save to do with her only. like today when she came over, we walked to this place thats out of the way down by the water. the setting sun casted the sky into deep purple, blue, and lavender as the clouds absorbed all that was left of the day's sunlight. it resemles laying in the water on a beach and looking up through waves as they break to shore, except at standstill. we just layed there in the moment on the grass, simply open to the world, vulnerable and fragile. surreal. ill remember that forever and will never be able to bring it back. we ate pizza with my family and then went upstairs to watch igby goes down. id never seen that movie before and probably will never view it again in my life. thats what makes it memoriable. i did it once and i did it with her. i honestly feel the year we spent apart strengthened our relationship. there's something about spending time apart, anticipating together, that makes our time close more wonderful. i looked forward to this evening all week and ill look forward to the next just the same. im so glad we can say we're close friends.
i took jennica back home a little while ago and its so depressing to see her go. she'll leave and it always seems like the its last time ill see her, so im obligated to tell her everything on my mind and how i feel about life and everything in it. she tells me, but ive never thought about how incredible it is that we can relate to each other so naturally. its not creapy, its not unique, its not right. its special, its wonderful, its even beautiful the way we can just sit down and literally pour our hearts out over things hidden to the naked eyes of the world. you'll never know whats underneath until you can listen to whats inside someone else's mind. i love spending time with her so much...its great. indescribable actually. and ive never truely siad how much i enjoy hanging out with her...i guess i just take our visits together for granted. we dont see each other very often. talking to her over the phone and being with her in person is like day and night. there's things we'll do together that i save to do with her only. like today when she came over, we walked to this place thats out of the way down by the water. the setting sun casted the sky into deep purple, blue, and lavender as the clouds absorbed all that was left of the day's sunlight. it resemles laying in the water on a beach and looking up through waves as they break to shore, except at standstill. we just layed there in the moment on the grass, simply open to the world, vulnerable and fragile. surreal. ill remember that forever and will never be able to bring it back. we ate pizza with my family and then went upstairs to watch igby goes down. id never seen that movie before and probably will never view it again in my life. thats what makes it memoriable. i did it once and i did it with her. i honestly feel the year we spent apart strengthened our relationship. there's something about spending time apart, anticipating together, that makes our time close more wonderful. i looked forward to this evening all week and ill look forward to the next just the same. im so glad we can say we're close friends.