A Diffrent Day!
Part of being Bi-Polar (having been diagnosed back in college) is having high highs and low lows. For the last SEVERAL months I've been experiencing the Lows only. Today, for the first time in A LONG time I'm having a High High. It's not healthy and is a symptom of the Bi-Polar disorder just like the lows but I'm so thankful for it today. I'm so up and happy I want to do something, I want to go someplace...I'm not dreading the phone or the e-mail box. I didn't get mad at people on the road to deposit my unemployment or the cashier. I'm jittery to get moving and can see the sun and be thankful for it. Colors are vibrant, smells are pleasant, the dog is a joy and there is hope for the future. I may have had 15 interviews but that's 15 more than a lot of people have had and I'm thankful. I have friends who care and are looking out for me the best they can. My family is still falling apart but one day they will heal and they will be stronger then they ever have been, especially my mother. Weight loss is slow going but I can see a difference in my metabolism and clothes are fitting a bit loser. Today, is a GOOD day!