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i'm scared, i'm so nervous to go back to school. i know i shouldnt be but i am. i'm just nervous for some reason i can't pinpoint it at all either. last year i was so nervous, but i had reason to be. i didnt know anyone or what it was gonna be like. now, nothing is like that but im just a big bundle of nerves to go back. maybe because im afraid of losing touch with people here. this summers been so different and its been hard with everyone and were all here. so im just afraid when were all spread out again, that it wont be the same. its two weeks till its time to go, and out of that 3 days ill be in rhode island. time is ticking fast.
theres so much on my mind right now. i dont even know where to start. i feel like im gonna suck at entertainment. i just don't know, my ideas and events are just gonna suck. im worried about it.
and my shoulder is really hurting again when i swim. im worried about that too. i thought it would be all better when i started again cause i took so much time off, but it hurts. i take advil now whenever i go to the pool and im just so worried about it. im afraid it might be my stroke or worse there will be nothing i can do about it. its really bothering me, both mentally and physically
today was krista's birthday. she turned 21! i missed having her around. its nice that shes back now but it sucks for her that as soon as she comes back everyone goes back to school.
and yesterday was catheryns birthday. i need to get her something, any ideas? really any would help at all
2 weeks! less than that now, its 13 days. i need to pack, theres still so much on my list to do, i finally organized it into just one big list today and theres so much.
tomorrow is swimming and then a cinderella story again with lisa gina alli and maybe krista and tine and chinese food too! i miss hanging out with these girls all the time
everything just feels so uncertain right now. not at all how i wanted to be at this time. i dont know whats going to happen with some things and i hate it. if you know me you know that one thing i hate more than anything is surprises. last year at this time, i felt things in my life were a lot more sturdy, for lack of a better word, than they are right now. i'm afraid things are just gonna fall apart in 2 weeks and that will be the end of that. there are somethings i know i shouldnt be worried about but others are just so unclear. its really upsetting me lately and i wish i could do more than ive done about it. i just dont know how else i can fix it more.
i really cant wait to see some people. im so looking forward to it. i love reunions, if you can call it that.
triathalon in 4 days! ahhh wish me and ali luck on it!
leave some please!
theres so much on my mind right now. i dont even know where to start. i feel like im gonna suck at entertainment. i just don't know, my ideas and events are just gonna suck. im worried about it.
and my shoulder is really hurting again when i swim. im worried about that too. i thought it would be all better when i started again cause i took so much time off, but it hurts. i take advil now whenever i go to the pool and im just so worried about it. im afraid it might be my stroke or worse there will be nothing i can do about it. its really bothering me, both mentally and physically
today was krista's birthday. she turned 21! i missed having her around. its nice that shes back now but it sucks for her that as soon as she comes back everyone goes back to school.
and yesterday was catheryns birthday. i need to get her something, any ideas? really any would help at all
2 weeks! less than that now, its 13 days. i need to pack, theres still so much on my list to do, i finally organized it into just one big list today and theres so much.
tomorrow is swimming and then a cinderella story again with lisa gina alli and maybe krista and tine and chinese food too! i miss hanging out with these girls all the time
everything just feels so uncertain right now. not at all how i wanted to be at this time. i dont know whats going to happen with some things and i hate it. if you know me you know that one thing i hate more than anything is surprises. last year at this time, i felt things in my life were a lot more sturdy, for lack of a better word, than they are right now. i'm afraid things are just gonna fall apart in 2 weeks and that will be the end of that. there are somethings i know i shouldnt be worried about but others are just so unclear. its really upsetting me lately and i wish i could do more than ive done about it. i just dont know how else i can fix it more.
i really cant wait to see some people. im so looking forward to it. i love reunions, if you can call it that.
triathalon in 4 days! ahhh wish me and ali luck on it!
leave some please!