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Being unbelievably restless is tiresome. Tired of not sleeping, tired of pacing, and feeling like I'm missing something. For the most part, I've lost hope in the intentions of everyone. One person can be burned only so many times before it gets old. Yet, what comes around really does go around.
I finally made it up to visit Nicole's grave. It only made me more restless and irritated. And that's all that I want to say about that.
Rae leaves today for Hawaii. It's strange that all of the people I grew up with are taking off or are no longer around. We talked for a good hour. About life in general and everything that's been going on. I'm jealous that she is getting to leave so soon. I understand that I have a ticket out of this place but it's not coming soon enough. I've contemplated going back to school just because life is really that boring these days. I need something to do to occupy my time. The working world wasn't as brilliant as I figured it would be.
One thing Rae said that stuck with me pertained to waiting around for something to make a change. Made me want to drop off the deep end if I haven't completely already....what am I waiting for, after all? There is nothing left here for me to see, to do or to experience.
I think that I'm just going to take flight.
I finally made it up to visit Nicole's grave. It only made me more restless and irritated. And that's all that I want to say about that.
Rae leaves today for Hawaii. It's strange that all of the people I grew up with are taking off or are no longer around. We talked for a good hour. About life in general and everything that's been going on. I'm jealous that she is getting to leave so soon. I understand that I have a ticket out of this place but it's not coming soon enough. I've contemplated going back to school just because life is really that boring these days. I need something to do to occupy my time. The working world wasn't as brilliant as I figured it would be.
One thing Rae said that stuck with me pertained to waiting around for something to make a change. Made me want to drop off the deep end if I haven't completely already....what am I waiting for, after all? There is nothing left here for me to see, to do or to experience.
I think that I'm just going to take flight.