"Watch me point to the sky. You'll laugh and say ill never fly...""
This morning i had to get up early and drive 2 hrs into pennsylvania to get our new boxvan, which isnt actually new but alot better than the one we have now, so our driveway is pretty packed now. After that i went in the woods and started on my track... not bad so far but its small and pretty short. I need to clear all the woods up first until i finish it completely. The i started watching tv and passed out on my bed. I woke up and went bowling with ppl. After bowling i headed home and had to drop laura's bro off since she went out with ppl and i went home to sleep, since i have work tomorrow... poo.
- Something wiht me hasnt felt right lately. I feel like something is missing in my life and im not sure what it is. I dont feel like myself around anyone, and i dont even feel right when im alone either. Usually i feel decent when im alone but i cant even do that right now. I wish i knew what was wrong with me cause right now im not enjoying this. I mean im back from college which is good cause im away from the problems there, but now i have a whole new set going on here, but with myself. Christmas is a few days away and for like the first time ever it seems like its just going to be December 25th, not christmas. The only thing that felt normal to me at all was going riding today since i always forget everything when im doing it. The only other thing would be going to the boardwalk and walking around having fun and playing boardwalk games, but i cant do that now since its winter. I miss this alot from the summer, i always had a great time when i was at either the beach or boardwalk. I think i might go down someday soon for oldtimes, bring back some memories from the summer and maybe help me figure why i dont feel like myself lately and figure out whats wrong. I also want to get together with some ppl that i havent hung out with in a while, so ill try to get in contact with some of these ppl soon since most of them still go to high school so i dont ever really get to see them.
Ok enough with my complaining, im going ot sleep... if i can even fall asleep after this...
- Something wiht me hasnt felt right lately. I feel like something is missing in my life and im not sure what it is. I dont feel like myself around anyone, and i dont even feel right when im alone either. Usually i feel decent when im alone but i cant even do that right now. I wish i knew what was wrong with me cause right now im not enjoying this. I mean im back from college which is good cause im away from the problems there, but now i have a whole new set going on here, but with myself. Christmas is a few days away and for like the first time ever it seems like its just going to be December 25th, not christmas. The only thing that felt normal to me at all was going riding today since i always forget everything when im doing it. The only other thing would be going to the boardwalk and walking around having fun and playing boardwalk games, but i cant do that now since its winter. I miss this alot from the summer, i always had a great time when i was at either the beach or boardwalk. I think i might go down someday soon for oldtimes, bring back some memories from the summer and maybe help me figure why i dont feel like myself lately and figure out whats wrong. I also want to get together with some ppl that i havent hung out with in a while, so ill try to get in contact with some of these ppl soon since most of them still go to high school so i dont ever really get to see them.
Ok enough with my complaining, im going ot sleep... if i can even fall asleep after this...