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So how was Loyd?
well i miss my loyd :( but ill see him on monday hopefully
so i walked away from my life of sheltered activities, small community and friendships. i flipped my tassal to new people, more knowlege and big dreams.
today i attained something that i will never forget. something that i cannot put into words, and something that hasnt quite hit me yet. i think that the only people that really made me sad to leave were Nick and Tony. Nick and i have been together for 14 years. it would have been 18 if i ended up going to channel islands, but anyways, he and i have spent so much time together and so many memories. i think that ive taken him for granted...i mean he has always been there no matter what. and with tony, ive only really gotton to know him this year, but what an incredible guy he is. so intellectual and insightful and just fun to be around. im going to miss him.
now that that is over...
i happen to be grounded on the day of graduation.
great.
oh well, i wouldnt have really wanted to go to any party if i wasnt with collin. but still its the fact of the matter...and the fact of the matter is that i need to control my anger. this morning i slammed my door so hard that the mirror on the back of it fell off, the pictures on the wall fell, and my wall was dented. great, so basically all the money that i have recieved will be given to fixing my damage. whatever some things get me so fucking....alright im over it.
so chelsea came over and i actually enjoyed hanging out with her. the first time in a while. i think that since ive really found myself i have been able to be more open and more myself around everyone. its been better for me in so many ways.
well i miss my loyd :( but ill see him on monday hopefully
so i walked away from my life of sheltered activities, small community and friendships. i flipped my tassal to new people, more knowlege and big dreams.
today i attained something that i will never forget. something that i cannot put into words, and something that hasnt quite hit me yet. i think that the only people that really made me sad to leave were Nick and Tony. Nick and i have been together for 14 years. it would have been 18 if i ended up going to channel islands, but anyways, he and i have spent so much time together and so many memories. i think that ive taken him for granted...i mean he has always been there no matter what. and with tony, ive only really gotton to know him this year, but what an incredible guy he is. so intellectual and insightful and just fun to be around. im going to miss him.
now that that is over...
i happen to be grounded on the day of graduation.
great.
oh well, i wouldnt have really wanted to go to any party if i wasnt with collin. but still its the fact of the matter...and the fact of the matter is that i need to control my anger. this morning i slammed my door so hard that the mirror on the back of it fell off, the pictures on the wall fell, and my wall was dented. great, so basically all the money that i have recieved will be given to fixing my damage. whatever some things get me so fucking....alright im over it.
so chelsea came over and i actually enjoyed hanging out with her. the first time in a while. i think that since ive really found myself i have been able to be more open and more myself around everyone. its been better for me in so many ways.