May 26, 2004 08:31
well, its 8:30am and i haven't slept yet. i realized on my drive home this morning, that i am becoming something i don't want to be. when i took a look at myself from outside my body, it was disappointing.
this isn't who i am. im done with it. i want her to see the real me. who i want to become. i have been living things i never really did before. and i am glad i did them(for the most part), but don't want to anymore.
i hope she enjoys me.