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"...my heart was wrapped up in clovers the night i looked at you..."
so my day --- eh, could have been better. i'm just so confused right now. but then again, what person isn't confused at one point or another. i have so much on my mind right now, my head is going to explode. i'm only 17 -- i'm dealing with things right now that i don't want to have to be dealing with. i feel like i have no choice though. do i give up? just roll over and give up? it's not in my nature. it's just not fair. how do i help someone else to help myself? just be dependent damnit. stop relying on me. stop putting your weight on my shoulders. i'm heavy enough as it is!!
work was a complete waste of time. it always is but today was just 20X worse for some reason. but hey, i get paid. it just sucks when i think about all the other things i could be doing. meanwhile, i just sit there and play games, draw pictures, occasionally yell at a kid... that's a perk -- other than that, i'm bored as all hell.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
wow, i wish i could just rip all my clothes off and crawl out of skin and run around and just scream over and over and over....
so my day --- eh, could have been better. i'm just so confused right now. but then again, what person isn't confused at one point or another. i have so much on my mind right now, my head is going to explode. i'm only 17 -- i'm dealing with things right now that i don't want to have to be dealing with. i feel like i have no choice though. do i give up? just roll over and give up? it's not in my nature. it's just not fair. how do i help someone else to help myself? just be dependent damnit. stop relying on me. stop putting your weight on my shoulders. i'm heavy enough as it is!!
work was a complete waste of time. it always is but today was just 20X worse for some reason. but hey, i get paid. it just sucks when i think about all the other things i could be doing. meanwhile, i just sit there and play games, draw pictures, occasionally yell at a kid... that's a perk -- other than that, i'm bored as all hell.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
wow, i wish i could just rip all my clothes off and crawl out of skin and run around and just scream over and over and over....