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To The Sunshine;
I've been through quite a few phases of transistions of personality in the last year alone. I hate to realize that I was doing really well after doing really shitty just to be doing shitty all over again. It kind of makes me want to give up sometimes. But it's also even harder to just give up on life. I guess whether or not you give up on it; life will keep going whether you are a part of the cycles or not. So, what is the fucking point?
Lately, I have been tired. Lazy might be the better word. And whether or not I've given up on life, I sure have given up on areas of my life. I've noticed that I could get 12 hours of sleep and I'm still tired. I don't have the motivation to work out lately. Some days I do, but not lately. I'd rather sit around playing video games. Or just sitting period. Waiting around for someone to come up with something to do. Or waiting for our breaks we take from sitting. Remember, however, that when I came to school, I didn't plan on making that habit worse.
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I seem to be that person who is constantly on guard. constantly quiet. constantly assuming that they know what everyone else is thinking. Lately, I haven't been that person, and look at where I am because I lacked that.
Actually, I don't think I really care, because it is true that people will think what they want to think whether or not it is in fact true. What's funny is that we are not in high school anymore.
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I've also decided that I hate college. I can't stand it. I wait all week inticipating the weekend when I can go home. See my Laney, my mommy, and Jared. Why am I so effing lame?? I've yet to figure that out. I just need to get through these 2 weeks and then it will be break again....
I hate the smells here. Everything makes me sick. I can't eat at Kliner anymore because everything smells bad. I'm tired here. And I hate it here. blah blah blah. I want to go home.
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I want it to snow. I want to go snowboarding.
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I hate giving plasma 2/3 of the time I die.... I'm going to have to switch arms... hopefully I can get a nurse that knows what the eff she is doing..
kk, I'm done bitching.
I've been through quite a few phases of transistions of personality in the last year alone. I hate to realize that I was doing really well after doing really shitty just to be doing shitty all over again. It kind of makes me want to give up sometimes. But it's also even harder to just give up on life. I guess whether or not you give up on it; life will keep going whether you are a part of the cycles or not. So, what is the fucking point?
Lately, I have been tired. Lazy might be the better word. And whether or not I've given up on life, I sure have given up on areas of my life. I've noticed that I could get 12 hours of sleep and I'm still tired. I don't have the motivation to work out lately. Some days I do, but not lately. I'd rather sit around playing video games. Or just sitting period. Waiting around for someone to come up with something to do. Or waiting for our breaks we take from sitting. Remember, however, that when I came to school, I didn't plan on making that habit worse.
******
I seem to be that person who is constantly on guard. constantly quiet. constantly assuming that they know what everyone else is thinking. Lately, I haven't been that person, and look at where I am because I lacked that.
Actually, I don't think I really care, because it is true that people will think what they want to think whether or not it is in fact true. What's funny is that we are not in high school anymore.
******
I've also decided that I hate college. I can't stand it. I wait all week inticipating the weekend when I can go home. See my Laney, my mommy, and Jared. Why am I so effing lame?? I've yet to figure that out. I just need to get through these 2 weeks and then it will be break again....
I hate the smells here. Everything makes me sick. I can't eat at Kliner anymore because everything smells bad. I'm tired here. And I hate it here. blah blah blah. I want to go home.
******
I want it to snow. I want to go snowboarding.
******
I hate giving plasma 2/3 of the time I die.... I'm going to have to switch arms... hopefully I can get a nurse that knows what the eff she is doing..
kk, I'm done bitching.