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I need a freind.
I miss Rich much more than he knows and I really needed to talk to him this morning but I was sleeping. I have a bunch of things on my mind and a lot of stuff that is currently happening is making me really sad. No one cares to call me and see how I'm doing. I just get phone calls to party or to let a bunch of people I don't know stay at my house. Which turned out to be okay because they were polite, but still, It's not cool to "go out for food" and just not come back. It worries people. I'm pretty sure I'm giving up and saying ... you win. I'm apparently not invited on Wed. and my boyfriend is sooo... that's cool.
Being alone really blows and being alone blows even more when the things you used to love are paraded around in front of you. This is not directed to be mean towards anyone... I just feel really alone and I just think I was meant to feel that way. Some things just aren't fair in life. We all go down different paths... mine is meant to be traveled alone.
Some things will never be the same.
I lay in my bed at night and look up at the stars... both of them... and wish he was here with me.
I put the Rocket Summer on and get misty eyed thinking about not so old times.
I guess you're just too cool for me.
I'm lame, I know.
Again... this is not aimed at any one person... I'm just in a weird mood and I wish I had as many friends as you do so i had one to lean on right now.
Usually when I miss him you're here to comfort me.
I give up.
Please don't get mad...