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[jesy]

I dont remember what you look like.
I try not to remember.
I cant think about it without crying.

I think I'm happier now.

Probably.

right?

I dont remember feeling anything then.
I dont remember happy or sad or angry.
I think that when you fall out of love feelings go away.
Its like this nameless pain.
There couldnt be a name for it.

I went back to that city on Friday.
It was the same.
It feels like hope.
The hope that we had when we moved there together.
The hope of something amazing.

Theres this basement in my house that smells like you.
Philli basements all smell the same I think.
Mold.
It should be gross but its relieving.
The smell reminds me of what you look like.

I'm not sad anymore.
I'm not really anything.
I'm not yours anymore and your not mine.
Never again.

Thank you.