Nov 14, 2005 21:21
I'll always have that knawing feeling of wanting and needing to do or say a certain thing, but never quite have the nerve to do it. I used to tell myself theres always tomorrow, but now there is no tomorrow, and I'm left with wondering what if. It's an annoying feeling, but I'm starting to adjust. I'll catch your eye from time to time... and it's still there. That nervous feeling that you know exactly what I'm thinking. Your eyes pierce through me like daggers, but are gentle all the same. I find myself hating the way I feel everytime I catch your glance, but somehow I wish it would last longer than just a few seconds. You know more about me than I do, and I know you wish you didn't. There are so many things I want to say... but I know nothing would change, so I keep them to myself until maybe they go away. Each time I think I'm through with guessing and thinking and wondering... I catch that glance... and it comes flooding back. You'll always have that effect on me, but we'll never act on it.
There's no use in waiting when I know you won't say anything. So what's left to do?..