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an interesting time now.
so i think erin has run out of steam with questions to ask me, and i've run out of steam with various things to -tell- her..
and at the same time she's leaving for dance on the left coast, where she'll keep strange hours no doubt..
and it was really starting to bother me, it always seems that i meet a girl, talk to her for a while, reveal a bunch of things, answer a bunch of her questions as best i can.. and then we sort of run out of steam.
the mystique is gone, i'm not some mysteriously bearded jesus anymore, i'm just a dude who's disturbing inner workings they've seen because I try to answer the questions honestly.
i always have trouble answering the questions honestly, there are so many -factors-. it's not 1+2=3, it's always x(w_1)+y(w_2)=z where w is weight... only it's that with a lot more variables. and i didn't throw -that- in there to (really mildly, no doubt) impress anyone... lol. it's fun anyway.
anyhow, i always have trouble, and wonder how long it will take my "honest" answers to change with new data or something.
but with erin, who is the subject of this post for the most part (along with myself of course), i feel that i've done better than ever before telling honest answers to someone who will understand what i say.
the initial impact erin had on me, coupled with how olivia feels about her, garners an immense amount of trust.. enough to worry me a little, so i don't look at it directly, like the sun.
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so the -point-, from waaay back there, is: we've basically hit the part where she stops caring about me, if this was like the other times. but i don't think it is. i'm not sure we can maintain the steady stream of IM's for now, but after thinking about it a little on the drive home, I don't see any actual numbers or facts in my favor, but I -do- have a confident feeling about this.
plus, i've still got a few questions for her..
all in all, her becoming (very?) busy with a subject that is very enthralling for her at the same time that we run out of things to talk about is probably actually a really good coincidence.
and olivia is -almost- home.
so i think erin has run out of steam with questions to ask me, and i've run out of steam with various things to -tell- her..
and at the same time she's leaving for dance on the left coast, where she'll keep strange hours no doubt..
and it was really starting to bother me, it always seems that i meet a girl, talk to her for a while, reveal a bunch of things, answer a bunch of her questions as best i can.. and then we sort of run out of steam.
the mystique is gone, i'm not some mysteriously bearded jesus anymore, i'm just a dude who's disturbing inner workings they've seen because I try to answer the questions honestly.
i always have trouble answering the questions honestly, there are so many -factors-. it's not 1+2=3, it's always x(w_1)+y(w_2)=z where w is weight... only it's that with a lot more variables. and i didn't throw -that- in there to (really mildly, no doubt) impress anyone... lol. it's fun anyway.
anyhow, i always have trouble, and wonder how long it will take my "honest" answers to change with new data or something.
but with erin, who is the subject of this post for the most part (along with myself of course), i feel that i've done better than ever before telling honest answers to someone who will understand what i say.
the initial impact erin had on me, coupled with how olivia feels about her, garners an immense amount of trust.. enough to worry me a little, so i don't look at it directly, like the sun.
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so the -point-, from waaay back there, is: we've basically hit the part where she stops caring about me, if this was like the other times. but i don't think it is. i'm not sure we can maintain the steady stream of IM's for now, but after thinking about it a little on the drive home, I don't see any actual numbers or facts in my favor, but I -do- have a confident feeling about this.
plus, i've still got a few questions for her..
all in all, her becoming (very?) busy with a subject that is very enthralling for her at the same time that we run out of things to talk about is probably actually a really good coincidence.
and olivia is -almost- home.