A focus point.
So this is my first year in a "university system" and the stress level has rose on a steady incline over the last 5 months in school. Much different from my old college at just the community college level, and i have been distracted more this year than ever before. I have became distracted by the many distractions of life, people, events, and interruptions. I look back on this semester and see the many times i could have done things better perhaps more responsibly. In not knowing that it would have had a more positive outcome on my part, like studying more and becoming more alert in my classes. I cannot change the past but learn from my mistakes to improve the possibilities in the future. Now i need a focus point, i need some goal to aim for. Not a goal i know i can't reach but one that is possible for me to reach. My focus has been on God this whole semester, please Him in his presence and sharing the gospel. I have done those on most occasions, i just forgot about pleasing Him in my academics. Although my grades aren't exactly failing but closer than most students are, it has revealed my weak points and my strong points. I have learned to write better this semester by many nights working on papers and topic research (although i might not show for it on here, but it's just a blog/journal. Who cares, JL!!lol). I sit here now thinking about the meal i'm going to eat tonight, will it be the mystery meat or overbaked pasta? Well as i do, it draws my focus off test and finals in the upcoming week. Wed i have a test in Architecture, Thursday Sociology, and Friday Calc. Does it get any harder than this? Sometimes i wonder what it would be like to have Jesus as my teacher for all my classes, would He have the love and compassion on me to space out the exams and make sure we understood things before we took the test? Would He take the time to explain things in more detail? Well those are always questions we ask ourselves. So as chills run down my spine as thoughts of the final exams run through my mind, the soothing feeling of completing the first semester at the univ. comfort my weary soul. May the spirit of God indwell in each of our souls and nourish us with His word. Teach us to be loving and forgiving to one another. God Bless, Darren.