things are new and different, or maybe its just me.
so things are going very good and here and very very quick. we have our school starting in 23 days, that is craziness. I am so freakin excited i can barely sit still. we have a mad team in right now and it is gonig very good. i took them into the local high school where they did dances and talked about God. it was superb. lately God has been dropping hints that maybe he has plans for me to be here longer. that could be very interesting and actually i wouldnt mind. i would probably go home for a bit and then come back out here.
i am doing really well, things have been a little up and down and God is really healing some areas and touching some areas in my heart and it is really good. I enjoy playing guitar and am learning a bit here and there. i can play like 4 songs and thats pretty cool. lately i have been thinking about how much we stress on evangelism the issue of salvation but really thats not the big part of this, i mean yeah its definitley a part of it but the fact that we get to walk back in right fellowship for the rest of our lives is pretty freakin cool.
the other day i went for a walk and the wind was blowing softly and i was thinking how it would have been to have been Adam and "walk in the cool of the day" with God. that would have been crazy and then i thought how he must have felt after the fall. there must have been an awful sick feeling in the pit of his stomach for the rest of his life. So im thinking that so many people get "saved" and then thats it, they dont walk with God or live their life with them because we stress so much on this issue of salvation which of course there is a definite time of deciding hey im in this or no way im not, but maybe it is a bit more like a relationship where you grow to like and to love God. I am really learning to love Gods ways, just that you can tell a person by how they are and the things they do, and now i am beginning to learn Gods personality by looking at my life so far...He really is beautiful. I really like the way He looks at things.
i dont miss home as much. i miss the people there but things have changed a lot and i havent even really heard from that many people..if your reading this and thats you, i would like to hear from you, its ok though, things have changed, you have changed,i have changed...growing up is hard, things have to die so other things can give birth and sometimes the dying of things causes this mourning to go on inside. i have that a little bit. Like i turned around and things have changed so much and they just dont fit together like they used to and like in my young mind i always believed they would.
sometimes it hard to accept that this is my life, that my "see ya in 2 years" mindset suddenly got a little too small and now i am caught, hanging in the middle of too small shoes and the next ones are too big and i am holding my breath waiting for God to make things clearer. we will see. i have asked God to show me before my time here is up in January of 2007...its weird to think about.
hanging by a moment here with you, letting go of all i held onto....
i am doing really well, things have been a little up and down and God is really healing some areas and touching some areas in my heart and it is really good. I enjoy playing guitar and am learning a bit here and there. i can play like 4 songs and thats pretty cool. lately i have been thinking about how much we stress on evangelism the issue of salvation but really thats not the big part of this, i mean yeah its definitley a part of it but the fact that we get to walk back in right fellowship for the rest of our lives is pretty freakin cool.
the other day i went for a walk and the wind was blowing softly and i was thinking how it would have been to have been Adam and "walk in the cool of the day" with God. that would have been crazy and then i thought how he must have felt after the fall. there must have been an awful sick feeling in the pit of his stomach for the rest of his life. So im thinking that so many people get "saved" and then thats it, they dont walk with God or live their life with them because we stress so much on this issue of salvation which of course there is a definite time of deciding hey im in this or no way im not, but maybe it is a bit more like a relationship where you grow to like and to love God. I am really learning to love Gods ways, just that you can tell a person by how they are and the things they do, and now i am beginning to learn Gods personality by looking at my life so far...He really is beautiful. I really like the way He looks at things.
i dont miss home as much. i miss the people there but things have changed a lot and i havent even really heard from that many people..if your reading this and thats you, i would like to hear from you, its ok though, things have changed, you have changed,i have changed...growing up is hard, things have to die so other things can give birth and sometimes the dying of things causes this mourning to go on inside. i have that a little bit. Like i turned around and things have changed so much and they just dont fit together like they used to and like in my young mind i always believed they would.
sometimes it hard to accept that this is my life, that my "see ya in 2 years" mindset suddenly got a little too small and now i am caught, hanging in the middle of too small shoes and the next ones are too big and i am holding my breath waiting for God to make things clearer. we will see. i have asked God to show me before my time here is up in January of 2007...its weird to think about.
hanging by a moment here with you, letting go of all i held onto....