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[jesusiscooltome]

God, It's so hard to admit that in these past few days I have realized who are "Friends" and who are "Acquaintances". I feel that the people I knew aren't the people I know now. It looks so different now that I stand on the outside and look in. It's fine though, it was choices I made that got me in this situation. It's no one's fault but mine. Well, from now on, I'm just going to slowly avoid people until I'm out. I didn't want to, but I'm slowly going to back away and start over. I don't want to go back to where I was before because I'll loose you too God, but I do want something new. I'm tired of being the dumb one, the "big" guy, the one who "dress' like a 5 year old", I thought people liked me for who I am. Sure, I'll laugh things off God, Thats the way you made me, but man, people don't know how they hurt me; and You allow it. God, why are you stripping me of everything I ever had or wanted? I'm so undone. If it hurts this bad to realize all these things, Just leave me blind next time. God, I havn't even gotten a simple "hows it goin?" in like 7 days. God, Thank you so much for David S. he is always being used by you to encourage me and he doesn't even know. God, make me like him, that when I do something for you, that I wouldn't even realize it. That pride would have no place in my life. That I would come to that simplicity of knowing who you are. God, keep me in your will, but move me elsewhere. Please let it be a smooth move. I love You always.

Your Boy,
Victor Emanuel Mercado.