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i have been thinking alot latley
mostly this last hour.
i made a decision. and i thought something good would happen..and it did, temprarily, and then something even worse took its place. and i just now realized it. im not really mad that it turned out like it did because of what i did, its more ironic. well nobody knows what im talking about because me and one other person only know that it happened.
ANYWAYS
yesterday and the day before made me think alot too about guys in general, and one guy specifically. He wants to be in a relationship with me and its almost happened before, but the more i think about being with him the more i dont want it to happen. hes to....annoying kind of. like he trys to be cute and it just doesnt work for him. and i really dont know how to let him know how gay i think it is. basiclly i want him to find out on his own that its not gunna work, but thats not going to happen and thats mean. And hes got like 204895 girls on the side and just no, im not gunna deal with that shit.
Most of my friends suck too. Like yeah, i like them, but i dont like the choices they make. Some of them only care about drugs, and ive been staying away from them on purpose, and then they just get pissed...but they need to understand that thier wholelife cant be about drugs especially since they dont worry about school anymore.
Some of them only care about themselves and dont think before they do things. Acctually, thats most if not all, but im not going to start a sweet awsome LJ FIGHT!!@#
but im starting to "broden my horizons" i guess as my mom says..
i keep having wierd dreams
like about peeps, and my brother dieing, and gabbys boyfriend, and other shit i cant remember. i want to know what they mean
this entry was long and most of you guys dont care
TO BAD!
mostly this last hour.
i made a decision. and i thought something good would happen..and it did, temprarily, and then something even worse took its place. and i just now realized it. im not really mad that it turned out like it did because of what i did, its more ironic. well nobody knows what im talking about because me and one other person only know that it happened.
ANYWAYS
yesterday and the day before made me think alot too about guys in general, and one guy specifically. He wants to be in a relationship with me and its almost happened before, but the more i think about being with him the more i dont want it to happen. hes to....annoying kind of. like he trys to be cute and it just doesnt work for him. and i really dont know how to let him know how gay i think it is. basiclly i want him to find out on his own that its not gunna work, but thats not going to happen and thats mean. And hes got like 204895 girls on the side and just no, im not gunna deal with that shit.
Most of my friends suck too. Like yeah, i like them, but i dont like the choices they make. Some of them only care about drugs, and ive been staying away from them on purpose, and then they just get pissed...but they need to understand that thier wholelife cant be about drugs especially since they dont worry about school anymore.
Some of them only care about themselves and dont think before they do things. Acctually, thats most if not all, but im not going to start a sweet awsome LJ FIGHT!!@#
but im starting to "broden my horizons" i guess as my mom says..
i keep having wierd dreams
like about peeps, and my brother dieing, and gabbys boyfriend, and other shit i cant remember. i want to know what they mean
this entry was long and most of you guys dont care
TO BAD!