forgiveness
drama - an episode that is turbulent and highly emotional ... lol
man why do things have to be so complicated ... i asked elizabeth to forgive me ... why cuz i was wrong ... yes i was wrong ... i held anger against her that i should not have ... i was bitter tward her for hurting me ... but i my amusing prossess of growing up i relized that i should have acted more grown up ... i should have forgave her ... even if she wasnt asking for forgiveness ... but no i was retarded and stupid and decided to hold anger inside of me ...
and last night it just clicked in my head ... why should i still be angry ... what is the point ... its not doing anything but hurting me ... yes she hurt me ... but in the end it turned out all right ... and i came to finaly have a relationship with the one person i love more than anyone else ... i needed to ask for her forgiveness ...
so i emailed her to ask for her forgiveness ...
yea ... she pretty much cursed me out and called me a lier because "i never went out with josh" ... yea she told me that every one now knew how much of a "b****" i really am ...
so yea ... well u all know the truth ... u guys know that josh and i are togther ... that we love eachother ... and so i guess i shouldnt let it get to me ... but i really wanted her forgiveness ... i truly am sorry for being angry at her ... and not forgiving her ...
and i know most of u guys ... and i know u all think that she doesnt deserve forgiveness ... but i need to forgive her ... i WANT to forgive her ... and so now i dont exsacly know what to do ...
in my heart i hated her for hurting me ... and that was wrong ... i just want to know that everything is ok ... next year would be so award if we still hated eachother ... lol ... though kevin asurse me that he's got my back ... lol
i just dont exsacly know what to do ...
but i talked to josh about it ... we both agreed that we could do nothing else ...
~ dené
i truly am sorry ...
man why do things have to be so complicated ... i asked elizabeth to forgive me ... why cuz i was wrong ... yes i was wrong ... i held anger against her that i should not have ... i was bitter tward her for hurting me ... but i my amusing prossess of growing up i relized that i should have acted more grown up ... i should have forgave her ... even if she wasnt asking for forgiveness ... but no i was retarded and stupid and decided to hold anger inside of me ...
and last night it just clicked in my head ... why should i still be angry ... what is the point ... its not doing anything but hurting me ... yes she hurt me ... but in the end it turned out all right ... and i came to finaly have a relationship with the one person i love more than anyone else ... i needed to ask for her forgiveness ...
so i emailed her to ask for her forgiveness ...
yea ... she pretty much cursed me out and called me a lier because "i never went out with josh" ... yea she told me that every one now knew how much of a "b****" i really am ...
so yea ... well u all know the truth ... u guys know that josh and i are togther ... that we love eachother ... and so i guess i shouldnt let it get to me ... but i really wanted her forgiveness ... i truly am sorry for being angry at her ... and not forgiving her ...
and i know most of u guys ... and i know u all think that she doesnt deserve forgiveness ... but i need to forgive her ... i WANT to forgive her ... and so now i dont exsacly know what to do ...
in my heart i hated her for hurting me ... and that was wrong ... i just want to know that everything is ok ... next year would be so award if we still hated eachother ... lol ... though kevin asurse me that he's got my back ... lol
i just dont exsacly know what to do ...
but i talked to josh about it ... we both agreed that we could do nothing else ...
~ dené
i truly am sorry ...