blow me
so this is my fuckin journal. well im going to take advantage of that. Because i want to remember today...i do not ever want to forget how much hurt ive been feeling this month. I do not want to forget how i bottled it up and how it all went haywire. I want to remember feeling cold and numb and ignoring the conflicts and pain and hurt until this one very point where it drove me insane. It started while i was with angie and she tried to be everything i could ask for and i just got colder and more of a prick
Sorry to everybody ive been an asshole to the past month...especially angie..she deserves it a bunch even though she drove me nuts i shouldnt of just tossed her and everything off and been a prick. Shouldn't of had faith or conviction so quickly with chelsey that things would be great because she's so like me and everything is great....no..shes like me..hence why its twice as fucked over now and blew up in my face.
This is not a place in life i like to be. Time to dig myself out of my own grave again. I really need something to hold on to for safety's sake.
Sorry to everybody ive been an asshole to the past month...especially angie..she deserves it a bunch even though she drove me nuts i shouldnt of just tossed her and everything off and been a prick. Shouldn't of had faith or conviction so quickly with chelsey that things would be great because she's so like me and everything is great....no..shes like me..hence why its twice as fucked over now and blew up in my face.
This is not a place in life i like to be. Time to dig myself out of my own grave again. I really need something to hold on to for safety's sake.