lost, with rain and worry, a heavy stone looms
i dunno.
sad i guess. er, well... so very sick. strep or mono, i won't know for a bit and until then... i dunno. disease.
my neck and throat are so swollen. my head is pounding. i could sleep for years. oh the aching. so shitty. i might cry.
i had a terrible nightmare last night. it had been growing as a knot in the pit of my stomach for a couple of days. i can handle monsters and aliens and deamons and serial killers and even creepy mindfuck illogic nightmares, but not ones that involve someone i know and care about, terrorizing me, menacing, tormenting. that's too close, too uncomfortable. it makes me scared to ever see him again, Jack Boot.
everything, i feel so assaulted. we all lead such desperate lives. if i could just care less and set more things on fire.
sad i guess. er, well... so very sick. strep or mono, i won't know for a bit and until then... i dunno. disease.
my neck and throat are so swollen. my head is pounding. i could sleep for years. oh the aching. so shitty. i might cry.
i had a terrible nightmare last night. it had been growing as a knot in the pit of my stomach for a couple of days. i can handle monsters and aliens and deamons and serial killers and even creepy mindfuck illogic nightmares, but not ones that involve someone i know and care about, terrorizing me, menacing, tormenting. that's too close, too uncomfortable. it makes me scared to ever see him again, Jack Boot.
everything, i feel so assaulted. we all lead such desperate lives. if i could just care less and set more things on fire.