uhoh
How is that you can be with someone and have totally different goals in life, different perspectives on life, and even different morals and beliefs? It's amazing to me how that easily happens. But i don't know. I know sometime down the road we are going to butt heads with this shit. I adore and live for so many things...and i don't think he understands that. I don't think he sees what i want to live for or become. He's still a kid...getting used to a job and his first car. There's a lot of catching up he has to do to get to where i am now. I've been out of that stage for a little minute. I don't know. I don't think that he really knows what my passions are...but i don't think he really cares. Which is fine i guess...to an extent.
I told Joe yesterday that if Alex was doing the same thing that Lauren was doing, I would say fuck you in a heartbeat. No matter how much I love him, there is no one that is going to treat me like a little toy or make me feel like shit without them. There is no need for that. I have too much self-respect to let someone i love, and would do anything for, to walk all over me(not again). That's uncalled for, waste of time, and plain old bullshit. I love alex with every part of me but not even he is going to make me feel like some drug addict..needing and wanting and not being able to live without this person to the point of that person shitting on you and you just wiping the shit off and begging for more. There's a difference between loving that person...and just being plain stupid by dealing with this heartache this way. Some of the strongest people I know have been weakened by love, sex, and loneliness... You guys are so much stronger than this. Is it really that hard to believe that someone you loved that much has lied to you? B/c it's happened. And it probably going to happen again. It's life. People suck. You just gotta learn the tools to not let them win. You can go on. life is so much longer than you think...so many days of happiness with honestly many different people. THERE'S OTHER FISH IN THE SEA.
Better ones on that note.
I just love you guys. I wish i could do something about those assholes....but there isn't. Just stop making your lives so dramatic. is it really worth the pain and anguish. I guess it's worth the crazy and dramatic happiness that you get with it too...
Life is way too hard to add more stress and ridiculous drama into your life. Joe go take of your mom...she honestly doesn't have a long time. please.
Peace be with you....fuckers.
HEH.
I told Joe yesterday that if Alex was doing the same thing that Lauren was doing, I would say fuck you in a heartbeat. No matter how much I love him, there is no one that is going to treat me like a little toy or make me feel like shit without them. There is no need for that. I have too much self-respect to let someone i love, and would do anything for, to walk all over me(not again). That's uncalled for, waste of time, and plain old bullshit. I love alex with every part of me but not even he is going to make me feel like some drug addict..needing and wanting and not being able to live without this person to the point of that person shitting on you and you just wiping the shit off and begging for more. There's a difference between loving that person...and just being plain stupid by dealing with this heartache this way. Some of the strongest people I know have been weakened by love, sex, and loneliness... You guys are so much stronger than this. Is it really that hard to believe that someone you loved that much has lied to you? B/c it's happened. And it probably going to happen again. It's life. People suck. You just gotta learn the tools to not let them win. You can go on. life is so much longer than you think...so many days of happiness with honestly many different people. THERE'S OTHER FISH IN THE SEA.
Better ones on that note.
I just love you guys. I wish i could do something about those assholes....but there isn't. Just stop making your lives so dramatic. is it really worth the pain and anguish. I guess it's worth the crazy and dramatic happiness that you get with it too...
Life is way too hard to add more stress and ridiculous drama into your life. Joe go take of your mom...she honestly doesn't have a long time. please.
Peace be with you....fuckers.
HEH.