I don't know
Yesterday was wierd. I'm kind of confused right now. Things weren't clicking yesterday like they normally do. There's something on his mind and he won't talk to me about it. And that just sparked a fuse in my head.
I'm kind of excited for school. But not really. I mean it's just school. I went last year. It was school. And this time it'll be....school. I'm more excited for money to start rolling in at work. Money money money......i hope.
I need to go dancing...so badly. I need to get the bump out! Petey Pablo...his beats just make me want to shake my ass...I might just have to go to the oz this sunday. Brave the gross guys. Get some rolls? Let's see how much fun we can have.
I've decided that i'm just going to go back to how it used to be with him and me. Him after me and me not supposedly caring.....i need to give him the chase, even though we're together now.....hmmm that sounds a bit fun..eh? I can do this. It's more fun.
This whole relationship thing is a new thing still for me. Me and relationships don't work out very well...and i thought i didn't have those problems anymore, especially with Him, but i still do. The last relationship i had was with Justin. You all know how long ago that was. Since then it's just been one nighter things....Never get attached, They'll fuck you over if you get attached, fuck em. But now i don't have to have that attitude but it's still...i dont know..i'm extremely freaked out. I've been wanting to talk to him about it all, but i just can't. I don't want to show him my vulnerable side...my crazy side. I'm afraid he'll literally run away.
I hung out with Will yesterday. That was good times. Laura and i went to lunch at the outback steakhouse, and we saw him and he came out to the apartment and smoked a few blunts with us and the boys. It was fabulous. He reminded me of all the good times with Kenji but it doesn't change my mind about any of that shit. I want to try and stay out of their way as much as i can. Ms. Nonconfrontational(me) could give a shit about running into them. I honestly don't know what i would do if i did. I'm still very angry, but i still miss them. We had good times and that's all i would like to take from that summer, but it's the last thing i think about when thinking about that time. Anyways, he told me that they are doing well, and that's all i need to know.
My sister leaves on Friday. I'm sad. I haven't seen her. :(
I'm kind of excited for school. But not really. I mean it's just school. I went last year. It was school. And this time it'll be....school. I'm more excited for money to start rolling in at work. Money money money......i hope.
I need to go dancing...so badly. I need to get the bump out! Petey Pablo...his beats just make me want to shake my ass...I might just have to go to the oz this sunday. Brave the gross guys. Get some rolls? Let's see how much fun we can have.
I've decided that i'm just going to go back to how it used to be with him and me. Him after me and me not supposedly caring.....i need to give him the chase, even though we're together now.....hmmm that sounds a bit fun..eh? I can do this. It's more fun.
This whole relationship thing is a new thing still for me. Me and relationships don't work out very well...and i thought i didn't have those problems anymore, especially with Him, but i still do. The last relationship i had was with Justin. You all know how long ago that was. Since then it's just been one nighter things....Never get attached, They'll fuck you over if you get attached, fuck em. But now i don't have to have that attitude but it's still...i dont know..i'm extremely freaked out. I've been wanting to talk to him about it all, but i just can't. I don't want to show him my vulnerable side...my crazy side. I'm afraid he'll literally run away.
I hung out with Will yesterday. That was good times. Laura and i went to lunch at the outback steakhouse, and we saw him and he came out to the apartment and smoked a few blunts with us and the boys. It was fabulous. He reminded me of all the good times with Kenji but it doesn't change my mind about any of that shit. I want to try and stay out of their way as much as i can. Ms. Nonconfrontational(me) could give a shit about running into them. I honestly don't know what i would do if i did. I'm still very angry, but i still miss them. We had good times and that's all i would like to take from that summer, but it's the last thing i think about when thinking about that time. Anyways, he told me that they are doing well, and that's all i need to know.
My sister leaves on Friday. I'm sad. I haven't seen her. :(