Hmm...
Last night on the phone with Jon, he really said something that hit me to the core. "It doesn't matter what happens Jesus will always be there." I mean I know thats like a duhh statement, but it was just said to me at the right time. In a place where I feel so freaking alone, I'm so glad I have Him because without Him I'd be so lost. I take the only one who's ALWAYS there for me TOTALLY for granted. It makes me angry with myself. For some reason I can't seem to change that either.
Jon also said something really nice, "As for me you can call me any hour of the night, and I'll always be here to listen." I wish his attitude was always the way he acted last night. In which case I'd be close with him no question. I just get tired of him acting like that, then treating me crappy. I hope that things level off with us. We're hanging out on Friday I think. I really do love that kid. He means a lot to me. I am just sick of everyone making me feel like crap. I'm hurting so bad right now. I don't know what to do.
Pray for me... I have to do something that's gonna be really hard for me to do. Its something that I'm haven't talked to anyone about yet, but have been hardcore talking to God about. I'm scared and sad, but I think I'm doing the right thing.
Jon also said something really nice, "As for me you can call me any hour of the night, and I'll always be here to listen." I wish his attitude was always the way he acted last night. In which case I'd be close with him no question. I just get tired of him acting like that, then treating me crappy. I hope that things level off with us. We're hanging out on Friday I think. I really do love that kid. He means a lot to me. I am just sick of everyone making me feel like crap. I'm hurting so bad right now. I don't know what to do.
Pray for me... I have to do something that's gonna be really hard for me to do. Its something that I'm haven't talked to anyone about yet, but have been hardcore talking to God about. I'm scared and sad, but I think I'm doing the right thing.