A look back
It has been a long time. A long time since everything that has made me who I am to this point. Time has gone by and has been very fast. Today has been a long day, not in a bad way, but in length. It gave me some time to think back and as the first month of 2006 is comming to a close I would like to look back. This post will be a long one most likely, so if you dont like novels hit the X on the top right of your browser. But I know some one will read it.
Looking back to when I first met Nick it has ben a good and long time. For all I can remember he has been a constant, silent, and deadly friend. Nick and I always go through the how we met story when talking to Cindy. Most people know it already. But if any one has change my life it has to be that guy. When I look back to when he says that my "house has a lazy feel" to it, and he doesn't get much work done here, thats exactly how i think it should feel. There is not that is much better than engaging in a conversation with Nick. Nothign beats it, especially since he is one of the most attentive, appreciative and knowledgable people I know.
It's also been a long time since High School started. But it doesn't feel any different. It almost feels like the same thing every year. Not that it is bad, but some times I just feel like its not moving. Like nothing will ever make my life easier. But still its important and I like to learn new things, I just dont like to feel as if I am wasting my time. I'm sure plenty of people will understand that.
Over the years from 2000 and up I have gained (and lost) a lot of friends and rediscovered old friendships I didn't even know I had. Overall I think there is a net loss but the people that remain my friends are my friends and I don't think much can change that. So for all of you that take the time to read this and pay attention, thank you. But if you dont read it I wont ask you about it or care. But if you do its apprecciated.
From when I entered High School to now, I have changed in all aspects of my personality to some people. To others I have not, and that might just be what I am trying to do. But every time I change how I am it kills me a little on the inside. Somtimes it really gets me. When I am relaxed and myself things don't seem too bad. But when I get dragged down I really feel the drag. All in all I am not too happy with this part of my life at the moment. It needs somthing that's missing. I am sure almost every one has encontered that.
All in all I can't wait to start a new chapter in my life. Somthing that will allow me to relax, be less tense, more easy going. I feel stressed and penned. But it's not enought to stop me from trying to achieve my goals. No way in hell for that. I've learned a lot about people over the course of my current aggrevated course through time. It's some good and bad maybe I can apply that to later challenges and so on.
Also, there is more I have learned about respect. Some people really don't deserve it while others really do. If some one you know doesn't deserve respect dont lie to yourself and be polite. Becuase you can be polite to some one without respecting them. Don't waste your patients, time or energy on them, unless you are sure they are worth it.
One of the last things I have learned over these years is to stand up in what you believe in. There are a lot of stupid bastards out there that dont know whats right for any one. Im sure that no one reading this is one of those stupid bastards. Don't be stupid and uninformed. That's an other important thing I learned. People dont have to know anything but when they know nothing they should not speak. And thats not relative to situations.
THeres a lot more I could put down here but for the sake of myself and every one else. I will end it here.
Good Day.
Chris.
Looking back to when I first met Nick it has ben a good and long time. For all I can remember he has been a constant, silent, and deadly friend. Nick and I always go through the how we met story when talking to Cindy. Most people know it already. But if any one has change my life it has to be that guy. When I look back to when he says that my "house has a lazy feel" to it, and he doesn't get much work done here, thats exactly how i think it should feel. There is not that is much better than engaging in a conversation with Nick. Nothign beats it, especially since he is one of the most attentive, appreciative and knowledgable people I know.
It's also been a long time since High School started. But it doesn't feel any different. It almost feels like the same thing every year. Not that it is bad, but some times I just feel like its not moving. Like nothing will ever make my life easier. But still its important and I like to learn new things, I just dont like to feel as if I am wasting my time. I'm sure plenty of people will understand that.
Over the years from 2000 and up I have gained (and lost) a lot of friends and rediscovered old friendships I didn't even know I had. Overall I think there is a net loss but the people that remain my friends are my friends and I don't think much can change that. So for all of you that take the time to read this and pay attention, thank you. But if you dont read it I wont ask you about it or care. But if you do its apprecciated.
From when I entered High School to now, I have changed in all aspects of my personality to some people. To others I have not, and that might just be what I am trying to do. But every time I change how I am it kills me a little on the inside. Somtimes it really gets me. When I am relaxed and myself things don't seem too bad. But when I get dragged down I really feel the drag. All in all I am not too happy with this part of my life at the moment. It needs somthing that's missing. I am sure almost every one has encontered that.
All in all I can't wait to start a new chapter in my life. Somthing that will allow me to relax, be less tense, more easy going. I feel stressed and penned. But it's not enought to stop me from trying to achieve my goals. No way in hell for that. I've learned a lot about people over the course of my current aggrevated course through time. It's some good and bad maybe I can apply that to later challenges and so on.
Also, there is more I have learned about respect. Some people really don't deserve it while others really do. If some one you know doesn't deserve respect dont lie to yourself and be polite. Becuase you can be polite to some one without respecting them. Don't waste your patients, time or energy on them, unless you are sure they are worth it.
One of the last things I have learned over these years is to stand up in what you believe in. There are a lot of stupid bastards out there that dont know whats right for any one. Im sure that no one reading this is one of those stupid bastards. Don't be stupid and uninformed. That's an other important thing I learned. People dont have to know anything but when they know nothing they should not speak. And thats not relative to situations.
THeres a lot more I could put down here but for the sake of myself and every one else. I will end it here.
Good Day.
Chris.