Holy crap
There is so much that has been going on I wish I could have had the strength to actually post it. But I have been really drained tired and upset, so I havent got to. Im just gonna talk about stuff for my self right now So it might not be interesting.
I wrote a letter to the Martinez Gazette becuase they cannot write for shit. I also got my motorcycle almost completely done, it's comming along. I've been thinking about learning more russian, I just havent had the time. I thought about most of my friends that I dont talk to and such and felt pretty bad for a couple days. I wonder if they would be here for me? Its not like they will see this becuase not many people know I have it. I also thought about maybe being a little less of me and more of somthing else. Dont ask what that means.
I've wanted to relax Nick helps me with that. Im gonna miss him when he is gone. I really hope I get to hang out with him for a lengthy time later. I think I am a "control freak" I hate psychiatrist. I really want to start building a plane that will actually fly with Nicks help, he would make the engine. I have the duty of the Gearbox and airframe YAY FOR MATH. Im kinda looking forward to school although I will miss sleeping in, although that hasn't been happening lately.
I have mixed thoughts on my headlight, In one way I like it, In anouther way I dont. I NEED ENERGY. I NEED A REST! An actual one not me laying down worried or upset. I havent had a good night sleep in DAYS. I've been doing the Myspace shark thing too. I figure if people want to be my friends they will make it known to me. I dont think I bite. I am just not very accesible.
I WANT A BURGER! A big burger for dennys becuase It is really bad for me. Am I a hard person to understand? I always wondered how I came off to people. Most of the time I think I come off as an ass. Just because I tend not to like people in certain situations. My eyes are so heavy but if I sleep now I know I will miss somthing. I want to go on a ride. somewhere. I noticed how much better my motorcycles brakes are than my moms cars. Car breaks suck becuas cars are heavy. Have you ever wondered why people are so interesting but your not? At least to yourself. If you think you are an interesting person I want to talk to you more.
I think I need somthing that I cant get right now. I need to start moving in on some of my more obscure intrest. I dont ever want to work I dont want a job and I definatly dont want responsibility To I figure I should go to school and do as well as I can so later on in my life I can sit on the porch of MY HOUSE wherever I decide to make it and feel accomplished. I need more music, and I need somthing to plug my headphones into. I dont feel like listening to my MP3 player while IM on the computer I feel stupid if I do that. I need to act how I want to act without anything else. IT'S HARD. Nick is my friend because I can talk to him and he is the only one that gets anoyed it's fun. I want to leave.
I wrote a letter to the Martinez Gazette becuase they cannot write for shit. I also got my motorcycle almost completely done, it's comming along. I've been thinking about learning more russian, I just havent had the time. I thought about most of my friends that I dont talk to and such and felt pretty bad for a couple days. I wonder if they would be here for me? Its not like they will see this becuase not many people know I have it. I also thought about maybe being a little less of me and more of somthing else. Dont ask what that means.
I've wanted to relax Nick helps me with that. Im gonna miss him when he is gone. I really hope I get to hang out with him for a lengthy time later. I think I am a "control freak" I hate psychiatrist. I really want to start building a plane that will actually fly with Nicks help, he would make the engine. I have the duty of the Gearbox and airframe YAY FOR MATH. Im kinda looking forward to school although I will miss sleeping in, although that hasn't been happening lately.
I have mixed thoughts on my headlight, In one way I like it, In anouther way I dont. I NEED ENERGY. I NEED A REST! An actual one not me laying down worried or upset. I havent had a good night sleep in DAYS. I've been doing the Myspace shark thing too. I figure if people want to be my friends they will make it known to me. I dont think I bite. I am just not very accesible.
I WANT A BURGER! A big burger for dennys becuase It is really bad for me. Am I a hard person to understand? I always wondered how I came off to people. Most of the time I think I come off as an ass. Just because I tend not to like people in certain situations. My eyes are so heavy but if I sleep now I know I will miss somthing. I want to go on a ride. somewhere. I noticed how much better my motorcycles brakes are than my moms cars. Car breaks suck becuas cars are heavy. Have you ever wondered why people are so interesting but your not? At least to yourself. If you think you are an interesting person I want to talk to you more.
I think I need somthing that I cant get right now. I need to start moving in on some of my more obscure intrest. I dont ever want to work I dont want a job and I definatly dont want responsibility To I figure I should go to school and do as well as I can so later on in my life I can sit on the porch of MY HOUSE wherever I decide to make it and feel accomplished. I need more music, and I need somthing to plug my headphones into. I dont feel like listening to my MP3 player while IM on the computer I feel stupid if I do that. I need to act how I want to act without anything else. IT'S HARD. Nick is my friend because I can talk to him and he is the only one that gets anoyed it's fun. I want to leave.