happiness is so fleeting. i enjoy it today.
today at work, mom calls but i'm out on break with francois, hack_me_bitch, im_a_hot_dancer, and lyndazon. i listen to her message and she claims she just received really good news. i call her back and it is indeed really good news. she just recently had a ct scan and i guess the doc called her in today for the results (which is a bit strange as it one of her chemo days, but thursdays are usually much better than wednesdays). it turns out only 20 percent of the cancer cells are left! yay! the doctor told her that she would only need to be on chemo until the first or second week of january. before, she was told it might go as late as april. also, the doctor said that she might already be in remission by the end of the year! she has another appointment at the end of december, so we'll see how that goes. i was and am just so relieved to hear good news. it seems like life is such a pile of shit and discomfort, but at times like these smiling seems real and not just something i do to make other people less uncomfortable around me. the news could be a lot worse concerning the situation with my mom. it's nice to hear good things, especially before the holidays. i spend so much time lost in my pessimistic abyss of negativity that it's always a surprise when things work out the way i want them to. i guess i shouldn't question it. i should just enjoy it.