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so, i just took a bath. and did a lot of thinking about how i feel about life and what i want to do and everything. i know one thing. i want to get drunk, make out, and listen to minus the bear all night one night soon. i don't care how bad that sounds. i really don't. if it makes me a bad person, oh well. and i'll need some help in doing this. hello?
i've been so mean to myself and not being who i really am because i don't have a certain look. i hate that i do that to myself. i am so mean to myself. it's horrible. to me, if i'm happy at one point of the day, i can expect much bad luck the rest of the day or the next. it's like i have to pay a price. and it keeps me from habving much happiness.
i really need to get my fucking license. i got a letter in the mail saying that i've missed too much school. fuck all that. i need a note from my doctor. whatever. i like the bus right now though. the ride down here was great. i get a soy steamer at that coffee shop before i got on the bus. the lady at krt gave me the wrong time but i didn't mind. i just sat and observed people for about a half an hour. i saw an old black man with very few teeth arguing with his friend about the world and youth. i saw plenty of business men. i gave them bad looks. it was nice.
is that good enough, ben? haha.
i've been so mean to myself and not being who i really am because i don't have a certain look. i hate that i do that to myself. i am so mean to myself. it's horrible. to me, if i'm happy at one point of the day, i can expect much bad luck the rest of the day or the next. it's like i have to pay a price. and it keeps me from habving much happiness.
i really need to get my fucking license. i got a letter in the mail saying that i've missed too much school. fuck all that. i need a note from my doctor. whatever. i like the bus right now though. the ride down here was great. i get a soy steamer at that coffee shop before i got on the bus. the lady at krt gave me the wrong time but i didn't mind. i just sat and observed people for about a half an hour. i saw an old black man with very few teeth arguing with his friend about the world and youth. i saw plenty of business men. i gave them bad looks. it was nice.
is that good enough, ben? haha.