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I need a break. I woke up at 515 in the morning just to tell myself that.
Isn't it strange how you can feel everything and nothing at the same time? You can be so filled with words and what you want to say, and the weight, the heaviness in your heart feels like it's not there. I guess it's true actions speak louder than words. Words have no weight or meaning.
It's funny, but I can't believe that I am back here writing. I woke up at 515 because I don't feel connected to anything. Not even a normal sleep pattern. Does this sound really awful? It's not supposed to.
I used to come here, and let out all of my feeling. I wish I could get those words back. I wish I could find that girl again. What would she say to me? What would she tell me to do. It's kind of funny. A life I can't get back.
Situations aren't making me upset. I have gotten over the sadness in that. What's making me upset is how I consistently let myself be treated. I think I try too hard to see the good in people. And that's why I'm always the one.
I'm not done here. Not done yet anyway.
I'll ask myself was it worth it in two weeks. The answer, despite the outcome, will be yes. Because I will have once again proven I am the strongest.
It's funny. Every sad experience I always relive through the experience with Al. That time is best captured by two songs, April in Paris and You May Know Him.
Good morning.
Isn't it strange how you can feel everything and nothing at the same time? You can be so filled with words and what you want to say, and the weight, the heaviness in your heart feels like it's not there. I guess it's true actions speak louder than words. Words have no weight or meaning.
It's funny, but I can't believe that I am back here writing. I woke up at 515 because I don't feel connected to anything. Not even a normal sleep pattern. Does this sound really awful? It's not supposed to.
I used to come here, and let out all of my feeling. I wish I could get those words back. I wish I could find that girl again. What would she say to me? What would she tell me to do. It's kind of funny. A life I can't get back.
Situations aren't making me upset. I have gotten over the sadness in that. What's making me upset is how I consistently let myself be treated. I think I try too hard to see the good in people. And that's why I'm always the one.
I'm not done here. Not done yet anyway.
I'll ask myself was it worth it in two weeks. The answer, despite the outcome, will be yes. Because I will have once again proven I am the strongest.
It's funny. Every sad experience I always relive through the experience with Al. That time is best captured by two songs, April in Paris and You May Know Him.
Good morning.