Hmm

Oct 06, 2006 05:50

Okay so life seems to be all manner of fucked up now. I know I am one who did it but I really did not see this shit coming.

I have so much shit that I owe. I have a speeding ticket on the docket. I was going 41 in 25 and the cop was one of only two cool cops I have ever been pulled over by. I did deserve it but it sucks. My first speeding ticket was when I was going 120 in a 65. Now THAT was a nice cop, Matt, thanks for dealing with my need for speed. Cops are dicks in general though. My ticket for my registration was a pain. And the first and second muffler cops were bad. Pulled me over before they could have even seen my muffler. The worst was only three weeks ago when I was going to the Dungeon for the night. The cop gets out and immediately yells for me to put my hands on the wheel and has his gun unclipped. He was a dick, but stupid. (And I have to sidetrack and mention most of these cops, might be dicks but they are all stupid, like Banana Cop and little sick Sheldon.)

So I have two tickets now, the registration and the speeding ticket.

I have to pay the late fee for the registration. More money gone. And the usually smog matters. Beyond that I have my insurance, which went up because of the tickets. My car bill. My credit cards, only two but one of them is about to go bye-bye. I just got two new tires as well, put me back 300. And these are only the money problems that have immediate deadlines.

Then I have this girl problem now. I never had to deal with the shit I have now. Originally all I wanted was a girl. Then I met someone who I will call the Perfect girl. Perfect girl was just about everything I wanted, but she does not want me now. She said she did, but somehow things changed when I was not looking, and I ended up hating my life for a few weeks afterwards. I do not think she fully grasps who i am and now she is making decisions off bad info but such is life. I will forever be willing to drop anything I am doing for her, but this will not happen so I am moving on.

Then I met Vica. She is really tall. 6’2” tall. And she likes me way too much. But I do not feel the same for her. No go. Then there is this girl from High School. HS girl makes me uncomfortable and unsure sometimes but I do not want to date her. I do think she is a great friend though. And I do not want to end our friendship so I do not know what to do regarding her. I do not want to hurt her feelings. Then there is Amy. I met Amy on my first day of school. She is great. I have fun with her we get along well. Recently I asked her out to a club. We are going tomorrow. I wanted to make it a social thing, and invited some friends, most of whom will not make it, Fuck. Anyways… I meet this other girl named Mai Yia, pronounced “My - Ya” We talked and she seemed cool, so later I invited her to the club as well, innocently and as a friend. I did not try to flirt with her. We hung out a bit the next few days. And suddenly she kisses me.
I never intended for that to happen, but I think about it and I do like her. Well now what? Two girls I like are going to be there. I screwed up. I am a loyal person and do not believe in cheating or affairs of any sort. It seems like a simple matter of one or the other, but it is never that simple and it makes it sound impersonal. All this time I still continue to think of Perfect Girl, She keeps on intruding into my thoughts, making me miserable.

School is a pain. I have Algebra II. I am the worst person in the world when it comes to math, and I do not know how to get my grades up now. I just do not understand math. I get frustrated. I get upset and develop a headache and then I decide to take a nap. A really long nap. And then I forget about Math.

And what really sucks is living away from home. I miss Matt and Sheldon. The Dungeon is cool and all, but I do not see those guys at all anymore. I have not even seen Matt recently. He went to LA to visit his girl, and now he is in Colorado for his sis, wedding. When you get back man we need to have a ‘T’ perhaps even the barrel. Yes I think the barrel will do just fine. Shel too. The House Trio has not had a gathering in far too long a time.

I just needed to vent. Late.
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