God I wish they'd put something good on tv...
Hm...here I sit, wondering what to write about. Where to begin. What do I feel like writing about? What am I too lazy to write about? Hm...
My cat's so fucking cute and loveable, but she always ruins her chance and sleeping comfortably on my chest by drooling more than any dog I've ever known. Grooooss.....
I have that feeling of "nothing's ever gonna change" again. Like I should be doing more with my life after a year outta high school. Like something should have happened. But I'm still working at Hannaford's, I'm still living with my parents, my bed is still broken, and I don't even feel as though my personality has improved at all. I have learned how to deal with my brain: keep it sedated. I just gotta distract myself with never being home. It's when I'm alone that I start to think, and it's never anything positive.
I'd go on about how my sister checked herself into the mental ward for wanting to kill herself and how much I want to kill Jason, but I've already updated so many concerned people that I just don't have the energy. I beat the shit out of my punching bag long after I actually wanted to. If Voisine hadn't called, my body would be destroyed right now. Fuck I hate Jason... I've only ever truly hated two people: Jessie's dad, and Jason. Jessie's mom is pretty up there, too. There are so many people out there that just make me want to vomit.
I miss having a dog that I love. I think she kept me pretty sane, because she was someone to talk to when you just wanted to talk and not listen. Ah, she was a good dog...
I really want a full time job, so I can get my own place with a roommate and get a tattooing apprenticeship. But that full time job is what's punching me in the balls. I like my job well enough, I like my co-workers and I'm getting paid alright. So it has me not wanting to leave, because I'm so used to it. I'm afraid to find a job where I have to learn something new. I guess that really is what it all boils down to.
I really need to work on a portpholio if I wanna get an apprenticeship...
I'd keep rambling but joyous day! Chad called so now I have something to distract myself with. So see ya, wonderful readers.
And here's a little song to describe the days where I don't have a distraction. What a great song... Scratch that, what a great band. Second favorite <3 I really want that fucking System of a Down hoodie, it's so badass...
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived
My cat's so fucking cute and loveable, but she always ruins her chance and sleeping comfortably on my chest by drooling more than any dog I've ever known. Grooooss.....
I have that feeling of "nothing's ever gonna change" again. Like I should be doing more with my life after a year outta high school. Like something should have happened. But I'm still working at Hannaford's, I'm still living with my parents, my bed is still broken, and I don't even feel as though my personality has improved at all. I have learned how to deal with my brain: keep it sedated. I just gotta distract myself with never being home. It's when I'm alone that I start to think, and it's never anything positive.
I'd go on about how my sister checked herself into the mental ward for wanting to kill herself and how much I want to kill Jason, but I've already updated so many concerned people that I just don't have the energy. I beat the shit out of my punching bag long after I actually wanted to. If Voisine hadn't called, my body would be destroyed right now. Fuck I hate Jason... I've only ever truly hated two people: Jessie's dad, and Jason. Jessie's mom is pretty up there, too. There are so many people out there that just make me want to vomit.
I miss having a dog that I love. I think she kept me pretty sane, because she was someone to talk to when you just wanted to talk and not listen. Ah, she was a good dog...
I really want a full time job, so I can get my own place with a roommate and get a tattooing apprenticeship. But that full time job is what's punching me in the balls. I like my job well enough, I like my co-workers and I'm getting paid alright. So it has me not wanting to leave, because I'm so used to it. I'm afraid to find a job where I have to learn something new. I guess that really is what it all boils down to.
I really need to work on a portpholio if I wanna get an apprenticeship...
I'd keep rambling but joyous day! Chad called so now I have something to distract myself with. So see ya, wonderful readers.
And here's a little song to describe the days where I don't have a distraction. What a great song... Scratch that, what a great band. Second favorite <3 I really want that fucking System of a Down hoodie, it's so badass...
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived