today ifeel like shit..
i give up. i can't seem to get anythingto fall into place anymore. I guess it is a sign of my age. I have been sitting here for 11hrs waiting to get loaded.just to find out I may not get loaded. I have a repower waiting on me, but won't make it if i don't get loaded. My personal life is falling to hell in a hand basket. Friends? What are those? Since i am not constantly throwing parties, or going out anymore. I hear from none of them. Guess I need that reality check to remind me how alone I truly am. Wish i could say I expected different but i would be "lie-ing" and i don't do that right? Makes you wonder how much of your life is built on truth?
I try to be honest and be a stand up guy. but in the end my reality scews. All i do is drive, eat, sleep, drink, then rinse and repeat. I realize this is just a bunch of random ass complaints. But let me ask you.."how would you fair if you had no one to talk to, and you were alone 99% of the time?" I think I am ready to give up on everything and just assume the role of mindless robot, so bills can get paid. Yup there it is the root of the whole thing, in order to make more money, i need to stop existing. Well good bye it was fun while it lasted...
I try to be honest and be a stand up guy. but in the end my reality scews. All i do is drive, eat, sleep, drink, then rinse and repeat. I realize this is just a bunch of random ass complaints. But let me ask you.."how would you fair if you had no one to talk to, and you were alone 99% of the time?" I think I am ready to give up on everything and just assume the role of mindless robot, so bills can get paid. Yup there it is the root of the whole thing, in order to make more money, i need to stop existing. Well good bye it was fun while it lasted...