im ranting
FUCK OFF!!!!!! ...i swear to God its not fucking worth it if you still amount to nothing in their eyes, your words are hollow your opinions are wrong you HAVE to ALWAYS be up to something, dont speak unless spoken to, you dont think, youre a child, "God is the reason for this", wheres your retainer! you skipped didnt you???? blah balh blah, why dont you just dye your hair blond, yes if you change youll be treated better and rewarded oh im sorry im lieing what im saying is empty and the promises i make are lies, youre gaining weight, we just love dana soo much...proof its a fuckin perfect family picture! when will i be 18? i hope i dont fial this year! i dont want alex to leave i know thats selfish. i wish i was happpy and not bitter i have changed alot i hate that, if things dont change i am gonna leave soon, i wish i didnt do this to myself, i wish 8:20 wouldnt come in the morning, i wish i had gone out with my friends. i hope she doesnt wake up tomorrow. I HATE YOU die go to hell, and burn!
If i dissappeared and found myself somewhere where everything was nothing and was just empty space and that feeling you get when you are about to loose something very important to your life that num feeling even more then that was all thier was i would have found my utopia. and also i know they would be relieved not to have me here... she does somehting wrong and it doesnt matter its still my behavior that is the problem two wrongs dont make a right fuck that you cant expect someone not to make the wrong choice if it was okay for their sister to do it its fucking human nature. ugh i wanna say soo much but i cant on here.!!! i hate being afraid. i hear something down stairs and it sounds like someones screaming really high pitched i think its the ghost cause my fam is at diner, im gonna go ___ ______ ___ __________ i know its not that big of a deal but i dont want alot of people knowing my mom asked me why and i just said "cause" she would have killed me if she knew.
J.
If i dissappeared and found myself somewhere where everything was nothing and was just empty space and that feeling you get when you are about to loose something very important to your life that num feeling even more then that was all thier was i would have found my utopia. and also i know they would be relieved not to have me here... she does somehting wrong and it doesnt matter its still my behavior that is the problem two wrongs dont make a right fuck that you cant expect someone not to make the wrong choice if it was okay for their sister to do it its fucking human nature. ugh i wanna say soo much but i cant on here.!!! i hate being afraid. i hear something down stairs and it sounds like someones screaming really high pitched i think its the ghost cause my fam is at diner, im gonna go ___ ______ ___ __________ i know its not that big of a deal but i dont want alot of people knowing my mom asked me why and i just said "cause" she would have killed me if she knew.
J.