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so, ive been uber lonely lately. i cant believe i still have 5 weeks until i get to see dave again.
i just got off the phone with my friend crystal, who used to be my student chaplain. shes engaged. she got married during finals week her senior year at eastern, then was divorced a couple years later. i am so excited for her. she seems really happy now. and it was good to talk to her.
i went to the gym today for like 20 minutes.
oh right. yeah, i had a panic attack at work today. went home after like an hour. the last thing i want is for these things to start kicking my ass again. i hate it. its sort of a snowball effect. once i let one get the best of me it just keeps getting worse.
i wish i had a less depressing journal entry, my mom is going to read this and freak out. yes, mom found my journal. i wish i had plans for my life. i really want to just stay in school forever. get my masters at least, but i'm thinking i dont have it in me. i feel like i dont have anything in me right now. just pathetic-ness. and a whole bunch of Fs on my transcript.
i just got off the phone with my friend crystal, who used to be my student chaplain. shes engaged. she got married during finals week her senior year at eastern, then was divorced a couple years later. i am so excited for her. she seems really happy now. and it was good to talk to her.
i went to the gym today for like 20 minutes.
oh right. yeah, i had a panic attack at work today. went home after like an hour. the last thing i want is for these things to start kicking my ass again. i hate it. its sort of a snowball effect. once i let one get the best of me it just keeps getting worse.
i wish i had a less depressing journal entry, my mom is going to read this and freak out. yes, mom found my journal. i wish i had plans for my life. i really want to just stay in school forever. get my masters at least, but i'm thinking i dont have it in me. i feel like i dont have anything in me right now. just pathetic-ness. and a whole bunch of Fs on my transcript.