Every story has an ending. But in life, every ending is in reality, a new beginning.
It has been a slow couple of weeks, and I haven't had much time to post. Lets see what has been going on. I have been working every day like normal, paying bills, rent. I went to the gym last week, and that was a great work out. I hope to do it alot more often. Friday was Halloween, I got to hand out candy to all the kids and ran out 2 times, but I was able to pull stuff together because of my secret candy stash for myself that I have bought last week.
I also got some MAC makeup on Friday, I love it. The got different shades of purple and a couple base shadow sticks. The party started after trick-or-treating was over 8ish and went until who-knows-when. I called it quits around midnight when I was struggling to keep my eyes open. Having been awake for 20 hours at that point, and a couple painkillers later. There was also a party at my place, I got to watch drunk people walk around my place even thou many of thou annoyed me because they wouldn't stop talking about their character's.I must admit the whole thing has burnt me out and left a bitter taste in my mouth.. There are good people still in the cam thou. Saturday was game, there were gamers at my home, and we hung out some throughout the day as well. Sunday well its been going slow because of the change your clocks back and hour so now its really dark outside and I feel like its 8:25pm when its only 7:25. Woke up early, took more medicine then laid back down. When I finally woke up again and only a couple hours passed from there.
This is a bitching, moaning, and complaining post, mostly of me feeling screwed up and sorry for myself, so feel free to skip past if you want...
It's that time of year, the time when my mood drops further and further and I start to feel more and more miserable and life seems less and less tolerable. It's hitting me harder this year. Truth be told, I expected it to - I've had a fairly long period of being stable, and you know what they say - when something seems to good to be true, it usually is.
Sitting here it strikes me as funny that I'm considering 2 months a long period. But it's been one major anti-depressant switch over another until my doctor can find one that actually works, but I feel somewhat better then I have been. I am great full for his assistance.
I also got some MAC makeup on Friday, I love it. The got different shades of purple and a couple base shadow sticks. The party started after trick-or-treating was over 8ish and went until who-knows-when. I called it quits around midnight when I was struggling to keep my eyes open. Having been awake for 20 hours at that point, and a couple painkillers later. There was also a party at my place, I got to watch drunk people walk around my place even thou many of thou annoyed me because they wouldn't stop talking about their character's.I must admit the whole thing has burnt me out and left a bitter taste in my mouth.. There are good people still in the cam thou. Saturday was game, there were gamers at my home, and we hung out some throughout the day as well. Sunday well its been going slow because of the change your clocks back and hour so now its really dark outside and I feel like its 8:25pm when its only 7:25. Woke up early, took more medicine then laid back down. When I finally woke up again and only a couple hours passed from there.
This is a bitching, moaning, and complaining post, mostly of me feeling screwed up and sorry for myself, so feel free to skip past if you want...
It's that time of year, the time when my mood drops further and further and I start to feel more and more miserable and life seems less and less tolerable. It's hitting me harder this year. Truth be told, I expected it to - I've had a fairly long period of being stable, and you know what they say - when something seems to good to be true, it usually is.
Sitting here it strikes me as funny that I'm considering 2 months a long period. But it's been one major anti-depressant switch over another until my doctor can find one that actually works, but I feel somewhat better then I have been. I am great full for his assistance.