friggin emo.
i feel depressed for no damn reason. i feel alone but i know that i'm not. i feel sorry for myself when i shouldn't. i hate this feeling & it won't go away. i need to do something. being by myself doesn't work, being with buddies doesn't work. so what will? fucking emoness. i smoked 3 cigarettes today, not to be cool & not cuz i was bored; it was to try to alleviate the depression. i never do that. it seems like the start of dependence on nicotine, but whatever. at least it calmed me a little. everyone should die, though. the end.