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[jessxxx]

DISCLAIMER:
In this disclaimer I am stating all terms of the following argument and the one that preceded it. If you choose not to abide by this disclaimer, it's on you, not me.

Keep in mind that I'm angry right now. I am posting on live journal simply because I don't want to single anyone out, therefore creating an uncomfortable situation for

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[stardustjuliet]

We didnt talk much when you were at nattys, but i wasn't doing it because i was mad. And i didnt "talk shit" to anyone. I told casey about the email when she called me on saturday, because i found out she hadnt been to work on friday and i thought i better mention it just in case you hadnt and then i would have looked like a jerk for not warning her that it would be there on monday. Then i explained that i was upset, but that i knew where you were coming from, i just wished that i knew who it was really directed at because as i said to you, leaving it up in the air led everryone without a car to speculate, when did i fuck up? I dont think your wanting to be appreciated for doing good things for people is wrong AT ALL. I jsut wrote you a civil email(i did not intend to sound bitter, i was just stating my point of view on the situation) because i didnt want it to sound like i was correcting you in front of everyone, i jsut wanted to privately express my point of view of the situation to you, the person i wanted to talk to and not hurt. I ended my email with "we are all friends and should be able to talk openly and honestly with each other, so that is what i am doing. I LOVE YOU BOTH"
You said "We're all adults here and should be able to handle our issues accordingly. If you have a problem with me, tell me"- so that is what i did with my email. i didnt have a problem with you or you feeling unappreciated, but i dont think that adults are supposed to communicate through livejournal if they have a problem with their friends. And you said "if you have a problem with me then tell me", but that is not what you did in the first place, you didnt specify who and that was my only problem with your post. Im sorry if i sounded angry, naturally i felt hurt that you could talk to casey about who was making you angry, but you couldnt tell the people directly. I care about you a lot and i think if you have something on your mind you should be able to come to me about it, and if i want to have my own feelings about a problem that you present in your own way i should not feel afraid to tell you so, because without communication, aboout good and bad shit, there is no true connection. People fight with their families, their boyfriends, its natural for friends to disagree and work it out as friends. I didnt attack you ever and you should know that, and i didnt talk shit about you to casey or anyone else so if someone is saying i am talking shit to you then they need to tell me that as well, so i can corrrect them, or correct how i am voicing my frustration, because the last thing i want is for us to not be friends.

[jessxxx]

chels, the thing that upset me most is that you chose my WORK email to write to me. i have two other email addresses for personal use; everything going in or coming out of my work email is read by the higher-ups. granted you didn't say anything that could get me in trouble, but it could have been really bad. i didn't want to single anyone out simply because of the way things went with casey and natalie--everyone got dragged into it, and i figured if i put it in the open it would be less accusational. everyone chose to take it the way they took it. i had hoped you would all know me better than to assume i was pointing fingers and snapping at everyone; i thought my post was rather civil and reasonable. since we are all adults, i figured i could state my feelings without everyone getting all defensive--once again, why i used live journal--but evidently i was wrong. pardon me for sounding like a bitch right now, but i'm upset. i'm to the point of retracting everything i said and acting like nothing ever happened, because it's obvious no good can come of this. i'm tired of fighting with everyone. i just want to have my friends back. i try so hard to go out of my way to be nice and do good things for my friends, and the second i speak up, i'm the bad guy. i'm tired. the last thing i want is for us all not to be friends, but i also don't want to be walked on. each and every one of you would have done the EXACT same thing i did if you were in my shoes, and you all know it.

[stardustjuliet]

I honestly dont want to discuss this subject or any other sensitive subject on livejournal any more. I really dont think we are gonna get anywhere with this if we dont talk face to face. I want to get over this defensive talk and get to the working it out and trying to see where everyone is coming from. Maybe we can have a sit down-chill-out-talk out friendly style this weekend, because you are right nothing is coming from this. If we keep communicating via livejournal i fear that we wont ever feel any better about this and even if we say we will forget about it and move on, it still happened and shit always gets rehashed if its not resolved. My grandparents are hear until saturday so i cant really promise anything for before that. I think maybe saturday night or something. What works for you??

[jessxxx]

hmm...saturday morning i have to go to the post office and to pick up my new contacts, but i think that's it. not entirely sure though. and i have to see my dad at some point over the weekend because i'll be gone for father's day. in any case, call me. i'm totally down for a "group therapy" session :) i'll bring the nerf bats! lol

[jessxxx]

saturday night actually isn't going to work. how about tonight?

[jessxxx]

saturday night actually isn't going to work. how about tonight?