Older and wiser... well older anyways
The years go by but the more things change the more they stay the same. I'm losing faith, losing hope, everything. I hate my life. I've worked so hard, tried so hard... but I'm spinning my wheels. Nobody ever wants to date the tranny. Post-op and a million times better off than I was a decade ago... and yet, by my math, a shitty life, even times a million, still comes out to a shitty life with a net value of 0. Damn, I'm fucking depressed, melodramatic, and I sound like I'm still 18... which is why I feel like nothing has changed even while my life is solid and I'm approaching the big three-oh. But all this whining is lame and gets me nowhere so here is a list of things that don't suck and if I repeat them often enough maybe I'll get over myself.
I life in mid-town across from Starbucks.
I am 2 years into a 30 year career with the state which will theoretically allow me to retire in reasonable comfort.
I make more than double what I did when my uncle kicked me out of the house and I almost ended up homeless.
I have more friends than I can keep up with within a given week.
Grandma's health has improved drastically.
I now take yearly vacations to Hawaii
I'm able to listen to lectures and audio books all day at work on my i-pod and after two years I can tell you why Nietzsche is the worst phisopher ever, make a go of explaining general relativity and tell you why The Enlightenment was the best thing to hit Europe since the Renaissance.
I taught myself to skateboard.
I have a smart phone which keeps me connected online 24-7, holds my music, streams me movies and stores all the lesbian romance novels I could ever want.
I have fabulous hair.
I'm desperately lonely... oh shit, forget that last one! :(
I life in mid-town across from Starbucks.
I am 2 years into a 30 year career with the state which will theoretically allow me to retire in reasonable comfort.
I make more than double what I did when my uncle kicked me out of the house and I almost ended up homeless.
I have more friends than I can keep up with within a given week.
Grandma's health has improved drastically.
I now take yearly vacations to Hawaii
I'm able to listen to lectures and audio books all day at work on my i-pod and after two years I can tell you why Nietzsche is the worst phisopher ever, make a go of explaining general relativity and tell you why The Enlightenment was the best thing to hit Europe since the Renaissance.
I taught myself to skateboard.
I have a smart phone which keeps me connected online 24-7, holds my music, streams me movies and stores all the lesbian romance novels I could ever want.
I have fabulous hair.
I'm desperately lonely... oh shit, forget that last one! :(