Better For Having Known You
So if you do something nice I think it rather ruins it if you turn around and brag about it... Despite this I wanted to write about something nice I did recently. This poor homeless man came up to me on the street in front of Starbucks. He looked dead tired and freezing cold and he wanted money for a cup of coffee. I didn't have any money (I rarely carry cash) and I told him so politely and started to walk away. That's when I had this funny thought, what would Laura do? She's too polite to ever brag about it (as I am doing now) but I've seen her do some very nice things for homeless people around her neighborhood. So I turned back and walked after the man and brought him inside of Starbucks. I was careful to treat him with as much respect as possible referring to him as Sir and the like. I could imagine how I'd feel in his place- the lack of inherent dignity in such a situation. I bought him a large coffee and his choice of pastry and bid him have a good day. It was a small gesture and I'm writing about it not to pat myself on the back, as it were, but more to thank Laura for what she's taught me. (and I'm fairly sure she'll get around to reading this at some point)
Romantically I get so attached to the women I've dated I'll admit I can act like a complete idiot at the end of a relationship. But despite my over dramatic melancholy and broken heart over the years I've come to realize something important. For all of the women I've dated I've come away from the relationships better for having had them. Caitlin, Ceara, Laura... I honestly feel like I am a better person for having had these three women in my life. It makes me wonder what the next woman (once I find her of course) will bring into my life. I only hope that I have had the same positive effect, all things considered, as they have had on me.
In other news, seeing as how I haven't written in my journal for a few months, I've gone back to school to pursue a humble AA degree. Not much but I am enjoying learning again. I'm finally feeling whole enough in body and mind to redirect my energy to something new. No more devoting my waking hours to worrying over my transgendered status- I'm finally moving on with my life! So far I've got an A in each of my classes. Again I have to attribute part of my success to Laura's influence. She's really been a huge help in signing up for classes and figuring out which trains to take and so on.
Cheers!
Romantically I get so attached to the women I've dated I'll admit I can act like a complete idiot at the end of a relationship. But despite my over dramatic melancholy and broken heart over the years I've come to realize something important. For all of the women I've dated I've come away from the relationships better for having had them. Caitlin, Ceara, Laura... I honestly feel like I am a better person for having had these three women in my life. It makes me wonder what the next woman (once I find her of course) will bring into my life. I only hope that I have had the same positive effect, all things considered, as they have had on me.
In other news, seeing as how I haven't written in my journal for a few months, I've gone back to school to pursue a humble AA degree. Not much but I am enjoying learning again. I'm finally feeling whole enough in body and mind to redirect my energy to something new. No more devoting my waking hours to worrying over my transgendered status- I'm finally moving on with my life! So far I've got an A in each of my classes. Again I have to attribute part of my success to Laura's influence. She's really been a huge help in signing up for classes and figuring out which trains to take and so on.
Cheers!