the truth is...
we can't go on
thinking it's wrong to speak our minds
i've got to let out what's inside.. (Thanks Jaime for having that in your profile!!)
The truth is- I'm plain scared. I've never been away from home except for vacations and when my parents go out of town I've been home alone but never away "on my own". There are people here I honestly and truely don't want to leave behind. My family supports me and wants me to go far away... I do too. NC is very nice NH is nice too...RI is okay. Some days I don't want to go to college BUT yes I will I promise. J&W has a very promising future for me... what campus though? RI is right in the city, NC is right before the city. SNHU in NH but outside the city and secluded. I don't want to not be here for my sister even though I guess I'll have to be far away. I'm in love but that's not for me to discuss in here too much stuffUmm I'm crazy for someone even though I guess it's "complicated"??? I'm going through a stage right now I want to be far away but then again I don't...my 'rents can't afford to visit me in NC. Although its just amazing. But yes it all comes down to I'm scared to let go. I hate being alone in the sense that I can't see certain people when I want to. I guess everyone deals with that though. Paul is very supportive along with Sara, Jaime etc. Paul tells me how it's going to be and that I need to deal which is true I'll have to do that. I'll be forced to. I have so much I wish to spill but I can't I just can't. Only a few people will ever know how I really feel.........
::sigh::
Where is the <3?