Course Ends, Special Ed, and Life
My final course just ended tonight. Don't know how I did on the final two projects, but I'm pretty sure I did okay on them. I worked hard on them since Sunday and it really feels good to have them done! I am only days away from starting my internship this fall. Then I'll have one more in the spring and be done! An official Hopkins graduate! It feels so good to be close to the finish line. Still haven't received word from EG yet about my placement, but I'm sure it'll pan out somehow. It has to. Once I graduate, I will be in the workforce professionally as a special educator. I cannot tell you how much this excites me and how much this scares me at the same time. Why am I excited? I get to actually start my profession. I love the students I've worked with and can't wait until I have a classroom of my own. I get an actual salary; no more hourly wages for me thank you! Why am I scared? Well, it's a little more complicated than you would think.
Mom has recently been considering to take a position out in Reno, Nevada. Both she and my dad are going on a trip out there this fall to check out the area and see what they think about it. My mom's pretty certain already this is what she wants to do for the next few years. My dad isn't so sure. If it turns out he likes it, they will probably sell their house (he has hesitations about me staying here while saving money - he thinks I'll be having Saul over all the time, which is definitely not the case if you ask me because I want to wait until Saul and I can save up to get our own place together). If they sell their house, it will force me to go out and find another place to live while 'renting' a place temporarily. This frustrates me. Our initial plan was to let me stay here while saving up a nest egg so I can buy my own place. Hrmph and now that's changing. Which leaves me disappointed. But if my dad doesn't like it, then I would have to chose between living with my mom in Reno, living with him here or in Delaware (whichever he chooses), or living on my own.
As I know, the world doesn't revolve around me. But my world doesn't exactly go with my mom's either. She thinks I might reconsider paying back the HOPE Maryland Teacher Scholarship (by teaching somewhere in the state) and move out to Reno and just pay them back fiscally.Not only that, but leave Saul, my friends, and other close family relatives over here on this side of the States? If I want a future with Saul, I may as well stay here right? And my friends, they are all so dear to me. There are a few of them, but their friendships mean a lo. Then there's Jack. I don't know how he'd adapt to the change. He's not really big on change. He likes routine most of the time. So many decisions need to be made. I'm not sure I like growing up so much anymore. I cannot wait until I'm 30. I think by then I should be close to settling down. Don't get me wrong, I love life. I just don't like changes from previous plans, if that makes sense.Well, as Paul says "Que sera, sera." Whatever will be will be. And it will be okay, right?
Mom has recently been considering to take a position out in Reno, Nevada. Both she and my dad are going on a trip out there this fall to check out the area and see what they think about it. My mom's pretty certain already this is what she wants to do for the next few years. My dad isn't so sure. If it turns out he likes it, they will probably sell their house (he has hesitations about me staying here while saving money - he thinks I'll be having Saul over all the time, which is definitely not the case if you ask me because I want to wait until Saul and I can save up to get our own place together). If they sell their house, it will force me to go out and find another place to live while 'renting' a place temporarily. This frustrates me. Our initial plan was to let me stay here while saving up a nest egg so I can buy my own place. Hrmph and now that's changing. Which leaves me disappointed. But if my dad doesn't like it, then I would have to chose between living with my mom in Reno, living with him here or in Delaware (whichever he chooses), or living on my own.
As I know, the world doesn't revolve around me. But my world doesn't exactly go with my mom's either. She thinks I might reconsider paying back the HOPE Maryland Teacher Scholarship (by teaching somewhere in the state) and move out to Reno and just pay them back fiscally.Not only that, but leave Saul, my friends, and other close family relatives over here on this side of the States? If I want a future with Saul, I may as well stay here right? And my friends, they are all so dear to me. There are a few of them, but their friendships mean a lo. Then there's Jack. I don't know how he'd adapt to the change. He's not really big on change. He likes routine most of the time. So many decisions need to be made. I'm not sure I like growing up so much anymore. I cannot wait until I'm 30. I think by then I should be close to settling down. Don't get me wrong, I love life. I just don't like changes from previous plans, if that makes sense.Well, as Paul says "Que sera, sera." Whatever will be will be. And it will be okay, right?