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i hate the fucking holidays! i do believe that i am going to go way of scrooge this year and say bah humbug to everyone! this morning i woke up to a dear jess email. that's right a dear jess email! an email. so i have not had a very ahppy thanksgiving. i am miserable, sad, and depressed, and angry....i am feeling magenta. not completely blue because i am angry, so there is some red, not completely feeling like a coward so not a whole lot of yellow, not jealous really except perhaps of people that did not get a dear jess email. so it is a hodgpoge of emotions a hodgepodge of colors, i hate the color magenta and i hate this feeling so i am feeling magenta. i now have a katie box. it sits atop my closet. i have removed her picture from my desktop background and the background on my phone. i have not yet deleted the text messages of happier times, i am not that strong yet. i have to get stuff back and give stuff back to her so i have to be strong for that. but i wanted tolet you all know what was going on, and if i am less than good company for a little while this is why. maybe i should just get good and drunk.