Good afternoon America, part 2
I was thinking about what I posted earlier today, and I think I shall re-iterate what I said, but changed.
I miss Shane, but really what I miss is that connection with someone. Before him, I hadn't had physical, emotional, and strong mental relationship in 2 years. If you know me, you'll know that my past relationships have all been, well, different and often very short term. Most of that is just circumstance. I haven't had the joy of being in a committed relationship with someone that has lasted for more than a couple months. It's unfortunate, not because it has to be, but because I'm the kind of guy who wants that... or at least as of more recently I've wanted that. I seem to have trouble finding that spark with other people. Some people fly from one relationship to the next, and though I don't necessarily want that, I wish I did have a bit more luck with meeting someone and being on the same page. As they say in Six Feet Under, and which I whole-heartedly agree with, "it's all about timing". So I guess my timing has been off as for a while now, until I met Shane. It's too bad that our differentiating views were enough to separate us.
Maybe that sounded like whining, but I hope it doesn't. I'm very happy with the life I'm living, even if I haven't had the privilege of having a relationship last longer that a couple months. I think sometimes that maybe if I had more practice in that department I'd be better prepared for certain aspects of a longer relationship, but I often counter that hypothesis with the fact that each relationship, and person, is different. I'd rather just jump in with both feet and hope for the best. Ultimately, even if relationships do end, I think that what is most important is that you've learned something from them. And I can happily say that each of my relationships have left me with a different, if not always better, view on life.
I miss Shane, but really what I miss is that connection with someone. Before him, I hadn't had physical, emotional, and strong mental relationship in 2 years. If you know me, you'll know that my past relationships have all been, well, different and often very short term. Most of that is just circumstance. I haven't had the joy of being in a committed relationship with someone that has lasted for more than a couple months. It's unfortunate, not because it has to be, but because I'm the kind of guy who wants that... or at least as of more recently I've wanted that. I seem to have trouble finding that spark with other people. Some people fly from one relationship to the next, and though I don't necessarily want that, I wish I did have a bit more luck with meeting someone and being on the same page. As they say in Six Feet Under, and which I whole-heartedly agree with, "it's all about timing". So I guess my timing has been off as for a while now, until I met Shane. It's too bad that our differentiating views were enough to separate us.
Maybe that sounded like whining, but I hope it doesn't. I'm very happy with the life I'm living, even if I haven't had the privilege of having a relationship last longer that a couple months. I think sometimes that maybe if I had more practice in that department I'd be better prepared for certain aspects of a longer relationship, but I often counter that hypothesis with the fact that each relationship, and person, is different. I'd rather just jump in with both feet and hope for the best. Ultimately, even if relationships do end, I think that what is most important is that you've learned something from them. And I can happily say that each of my relationships have left me with a different, if not always better, view on life.