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have u ever felt so completely alone like there is no one else out there to hear u....im a failure in life im a pathetic excuse for a person.... let alone an adult... its just such a sorry case... im alone and i have made it this way for myself because im an idiot and i guess i enjoy it or thought i did... what do i do on my free time well absolutely nothing... omg jesslyn well thats no fun definately not the way a 20 year old ADULT usually spends their free time not a normal one at least... hah news flash im not normal... i dont remeber what its like to be happy.... i miss having friends.... i mean i have friends but do i really like now at days u dont know who is really a friend or an aquaintance u know its pitiful... im sitting here crying trying not to make it obvious that i am doing so because my aunt is not to far away n i dont want to have to explain myself because shes brought most of this up to my attention anyway... so its nothing new to her... i hate cesar just in case anyone cared... god i hate to cry it makes my head hurt bad the next day sort of like a hangover just minus the fun the previous night.... i hate what i have done to myself... im going to go now because im an idiot....