letting loose of my peace of mind ( Read more... )

Happiness is fake. I jus wish that I could show my REAL feelings all the time. That way no one will have to second guess if I am feeling okay or not. I am doing FINE people!

So stressed I can't actually come to terms with the fact that it happened. I AM better than that. I don't think it was that good of a lay anyway.

My tears turn to a madness spiraling out of thin air. I juggle nothing,and splatter in on the ground below me. Yet, I see blood. Burning my retinas I close the door. Hopefully the smell won't fumagate to this room, cause my body trembles to the sound of disaster always. I escape to a world where flowers bloom and birds chirp, yet the sky is dark ( Read more... )

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/06/21/pricy.burger.ap/index.html

I can't believe this shite!

I really tore myself into that mess... that mess of a relationship. And now it is just dead inside and out. He fucking fucked me, but I almost feel like it was for the best. No matter what, my feelings for him will never change even if his didn't. I love me some pillow fights and I love the moments when we attack each other and we just gaze into ( Read more... )

I have to get this off of my chest because it is eatin me alive. Lately I have read too much shit about how someone's sexuality can be, not really caused, but brought on by bpd. I am sick of it! Don't people fucking realize that this shit never causes or brings on something of this nature, if someone chooses to be straight, gay, bi, or whatever ( Read more... )

stuck in no man's land with no way to escape. It is a wall that is too hard to climb, to wide to get around, and too tall to get over. I just wish that I knew what to do. But, it seems like I should be used to this by now.

I sink lower and lower.. I cry. You sink higher and higher, you laugh. We are just going opposite directions and that really does blow hardcore. I am tired of stressing each day as to where I am going in life, I am tired of being the sick one. I am doing all that I can to make myself not feel that way, trying everything I can to make people proud ( Read more... )

You suck... I bit you!! It crawled towards the back of my throat... I crushed it.