Tired!
Yesterday was full of a lot of tears and saddness. I can remember just about every detail about yeterday. I was at the convocationa award ceremony whenI got "the call". I was really sad because I didn't make it. We drove fast, I swear we did, but we didn't make it. My mom and I were the only ones not there at the time my grandpa passed. I'm not mad though. Even though I wished he could of held on a little while longer just so I could say goodbye, but I know that would of been selfish of me. He did the best he could and I love him for that. Things are getting harder now. I just found out that his viewing is on the 31 and the funeral mass is on the 31. Just my luck. during finals. Now we have to try and work sumtin out with the school so that I can be there because they want me to read a reading at his mass. I dunno if I can. I'll probably be crying so much. I know I should be strong but I dunno if I can. Today I did a lot of thinking. I was thinking about my grandpa and mike and my other grandma. I just don't know how Chris did it. This really made me see what a strong person Chris is. Yesterday I tried really hard to be like him, you know strong for my family, but i just couldn't hold back my tears. Last night made me feel reaaly shity this morning. I was so tired and my eyes hurt a lot. I didn't go to sleep until like 1:00Am and that's only because I passed out crying. Iknow that when its someone's time its someone's time but hey what perfect timing, two days before prom and a right at a time when everything should be happy cuz of graduation and everything but hey what can I do. I don't blame my grandpa for this or anything it just kinda really sux. well I gtg do some homework and get some rest. soo i'm out. toodles